[Mestizo]
Prisoner of the past, refugee of abuse
Self-inflicted inherited and everyone's a victim
To the lost [?] ambition
Stop asking for permission, no cause for alarm
[?] by everyone you love compassion runs dry
And even in the sands of time, castles fall to ruins
This whole thing seems like a setup, one began for fools
And no one knows the rules, but act like we do
I hate you just because... blank, blank, blank
And word, word, word and attribute, attribute
Burning through the learning curve, smashing the avenues
And accepting different outcomes as murder becomes casual
To help steady the nerves, can't tell you 'cause it's tactical
But maybe I'm sent to serve something more real than Heaven
So tangible you could taste it, type of pain you could smell
When Ali said goodbye, he took my heart with him
I haven't been the same since; somehow, I'm getting stronger
He never knew his own power, I admired his existence
I still can't help but cry almost on a daily basis
My only escape from that well is to look on my sons' faces
Eternal light, saving graces, boy, it's hard to shake
So hard I get the shakes, it's so hard to face
I'm awake with suffocation, boy, there's nothing realer than suffering
Purpose of life and everything else is a bonus
I'm never not grateful, just wish I stuck it out
I'm never not grateful, just wish you'd cut that out
I'm never not grateful, just wish I coulda dug you out
Grateful, just wish I coulda pushed the sun through that cloud
[Bridge]
And I will not fly away from you
Unless you've earned your wings
And I will not fly away from you
Unless you've earned your wings
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye for now
[Doseone]
It's been exactly harder
And I... I don't know where you are
Just that it's where I can't go, so
So alone I've been, though
Folding these colds like warm clothes
Imagining us both old
Doing my best to believe in souls
But at the reverse glow of losing you grows
I am destroyed and it shows
My best friend's life came to an end
And I broke where I'm supposed to bend
Came with a wound beyond mend
Beyond scars, beyond bars
No matter how carefully crafted they are
"Hard" is an understatement
This is impossible
To accept or face how it hurts
That thick ache that has no bodily place
No chest or stomach to grace
It's sizable pain without shape
But for you, my love is exactly alive
It's thousands of miles high
It pierces the sky
It shines, smooth on all sides
And it thrives
Godless, perfect obelisk
Of my sheer dauntless, bottomless adoration
And it honors this beautiful man
Huddled, I stand
And quietly howl out pains and plain, sustained vows
Because words don't seem to work on this perfect hurt
Unearthed after something so wrong
And I didn't wanna do this in song
But... that's our bond
And I may not know where you've gone
But our love is so strong
It do truly exist
Outside memory, photos, tracklists
I've lost before, but never this much
And that was all just stuff
Now, I'm utterly stuck
With all these whys, wheres, and one ugly because
I'm sorry I couldn't protect you, nor erect you
Castle walls that wrap exact around your health
I'm sorry I couldn't help
I would've fought wolf, kraken, or adder
To protect every shred of your next chapter
And now... there's just after
Where I sit, shattered
And remember your laughter
And just remember your laughter
And just remember your laughter
And just remember your laughter
And so I'll walk
I'll walk that doghawk
And we don't talk
We don't bark, we don't squawk
And so I'll walk
I'll walk that doghawk
And we don't talk
It doesn't bark, it doesn't squawk
(Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye for now)
