[Verse 1: Ajax the Lesser]
You said what you said it made a whole lot clearer
You said it and then I started avoiding mirrors
You meant it and so I couldn’t make myself get much nearer
For fear of catching a dagger or knife or spear or
Some other mode of pain infliction on me by you
You did some damage but go on ahead and do what you do
You go ahead, I’ll be quick I’ll catch up in a few
I got some things in my head that I need to work through
I got demons and angels and whatever inhabits Purgatory
They screaming in halos and in a constant state of the warring
I don’t speak my own language my body in mind’s eye is foreign
I’m so tired of digging deep I’m bored of boring
And I’m too tired to fall asleep I need a 40
I drop down to my knees feigning adoring
I need something to break through my hard head
Treat my brain as a quarry
See my pain as a story
And treat my name as important
[Chorus: Ajax the Lesser]
Cause one day I’ll know (and one day I’ll know)
And one day you’ll see (and one day you’ll see)
That I’ll have turned into what I was to be (yes indeed, yes indeed, yes indeed I have)
And it may not be soon (and it may not be soon)
And it may not be now (no it may not be now)
But the trials are what the end judgments about (yes indeed, what they ‘bout, what they ‘bout you know)
And I could ask why (and I could ask why)
Or I could ask where (and I could ask where)
But as long as i get there i really don’t care (yes sir, yes sir)
[Verse: Ajax the Lesser]
Used to try to pick a persona to run with
Shotgunned therapy so that I could get done quick
Forgot how to cry, ‘cause I thought I was above it
I purged any and every emotion I couldn’t stomach
I tried to be cold and callous, I tried to be a hoe
My nightmare is being average, and never being known
I flit back and forth
Between axe and fork, a useful item and something used for a deadlier force
Don’t let me hype myself up, I ain’t that great
If I was, life wouldn’t be worth living anyways
Why play a game that you already won?
And w hy learn to walk, if you already run?
Why attend a knife fight if you handle a gun?
I just lost my train of thought
But I think I was on to somethin’
Used to think the drip was worth flying too close to the sun
But wings and wax don’t ever add to a holy one
And I ain’t no angel, but I ain’t no devil neither
I’ll never need the words of the deceiver
I run the game like the back and receiver
Matter of fact
I clean up my ugly act
And focus on whatever comes up next
My identity is my focal point, I turned my eyes convex
Who you know has a god and inferiority complex?
It’s me
[Chorus: Ajax the Lesser]
Cause one day I’ll know (and one day I’ll know)
And one day you’ll see (and one day you’ll see)
That I’ll have turned into what I was to be (yes indeed, yes indeed, yes indeed I have)
I don’t know how (I don’t know how)
And I don’t know why (no I don’t know why)
But I know that I’ll know by the end of my life (yes I’m praying’ for it, yes I’m praying for it)
[Outro: Marysa]
Yes it’s me
And I’ll be everything I wanted to be
And I’ll see everything I wanted to see
And I’ll be everything that I’ll ever need
Yes indeed
It’s me
And I’ll know everyone I wanted to know
And I’ll go everywhere I wanted to go
And I’ll take any risk I won't ever fold
I won't fold
It’s me
And I’ll be everything I wanted to be
And I’ll be everything I wanted to be
And I’ll be everything I wanted to be
Yes indeed
It’s me
