[Verse 1]
2019 it’s getting hard for me to count my blessings
All last year I was obsessing, shit done start getting messy
All my homies trapping, 12 got em all stressing
I’m going down with them man, fuck, this is my life and that shit get depressing
And although it seems like the grass is greener on the other side
Let me tell y’all it’s not, man I been thinking suicide
Wake up then go back to sleep, what am I doing right?
Looking back two years ago I swear that I was too alive
And now, I barely wanna go outside
Barely talk to my own family, I look you in the eyes
And tell you everything is perfect but in truth, I liе
I can’t begin to tell y’all how I do inside
Cut off еveryone hoping to get more creative
That was back in August and now that just seems crazy
Now it’s February and this loneliness begins to phase me
My parents just think that I’m rude and lazy
But I swear that I hate this, I ain’t tryna live like this
Left Mexico for better lives man I live like shit
And that ain’t your fault, trust me this is all on me
Fuck, I miss when teachers would call on me
And I’d be forced to participate. To interact
With the people in my class, gave that up in a flash
Thinking “fuck, this is ass”. I won’t be living like trash
Well now I’m like that, and that’s where I’m at
Now I stare at the metal that’s in my pistol
Everything I tried to avoid I slid right into
Like driving on icy roads, writing while shit get cold
Fighting until no soul, homie this ain’t no joke
I wish that I could just pull out a magic wand
And poof that shit is gone, begging, I ask someone to pull me out
Thinking, “am I your son?” Wishing there was someone
[Chorus]
To pull me out. Please pull me out
I’m dying of thirst, I’m in a drought
I want to be great I have no doubt
If you see me lacking please call me out
These dreams haunt me now. It’s on right now
I can’t change the channel I’m falling down
I’m in a hole, someone please pull me out
Or take this 40 and put me out
[Verse 2]
Never been the type to ask for help. Been too scared
Even when I was in school and clearly wasn’t prepared
I’d rather fail than ask for help, man the answer’s right there
Just brace myself and hope for the best, you think that’s fair?
Why do I do this to myself?
Is it because of all the cards that I have been dealt
Is it because I’m unprepared for what’s next like a belt
Is it because I’m like an ice cube in heat bout to melt
I know the reason but to scared to admit it
Will I keep my secrets hidden till I’m finished?
Thinking bout death got my head dizzy and spinning
Should I frame my death, leave you to find out who did it?
Would you even attempt to piece the puzzle?
Or would you just ignore it and install a muzzle?
Never speak about me like Tom Riddle, then I cook and bubble
And come back for all you fuckers so you feel my struggle
Then come back and hustle, and flex on every bitch yeah check the muscle
I hit next when I shuffle
Fix the deck then reshuffle
I need to turn this solo to a double
I'm good at first but always fumble
Always taking my shit out illegally then talk rebuttals
I need to chill and cuddle, or I’ll crack and crumble
Maybe I’ll be better when I’m out the puddle, in a couple
Till then you can catch me bored as fuck up in Russell
[Chorus]
So pull me out. Please pull me out
I’m dying of thirst, I’m in a drought
I want to be great I have no doubt
If you see me lacking please call me out
These dreams haunt me now. It’s on right now
I can’t change the channel I’m falling down
I’m in a hole, someone please pull me out
Or take this 40 and put me out
