(Verse 1) - Anfernee
Hit the record button
Well it was just me my mama and siblings in that small house, small house
Made it through the grace of God surviving in a small town
Coldest of the winter nights, acraps when it was dinner time
Trying to draw a thinner line between starving and getting mine
So I rap until I get it right, thankful for my friends
Cause they help me when I was trying hard to meet up with these ends
I want to keep my conscious clear, but I’m caught up with these sins
And I don’t want to lose my mind, but my mind don’t want to win
It seems like everyday there’s something new that gets me down
Like the other day my headphones broke, and one won’t play as loud
I seen it with my own eyes the world is really screwed
But it’s more tragic on the news when the news won’t make a sound
But I keep quiet about the riots because I got my own issues
Like my mama keep on crying and we just ran out of tissues
I’m losing my mental cause the motherfucking rent due
And they always told me that no one gon' assist you
But someone
(Chorus)
But someone please tell me it get’s better than this
Cause I can’t keep on living (x5) like this
V2
It was just me my mama and siblings in that small house, small house
Couldn’t pay the rent they kicked us all out, all out
That was during the holidays, I was still in college days
I was trying to find my place, while building a knowledge base
Imagine the last thing you see before that last exam
Is your life all over the lawn and tears coming from your fam
See my Mama at a loss for words dont want to see her hurt again
I prayed to God, but I think that he was busy down at Ferguson
Cause we ain’t got no answer, and we’re running out of time
I don’t want to turn to powder, but I been up on my grind
This song it fucking sucks cause it gets sadder by the verse
Cause my anxiety is high, and my depressions getting worse
And I want to see my daddy, but he lives so far away
I can’t make no travel plans, when I ain’t got no place to stay
Can’t make progress when I can barely make it through the day
So I pray and pray and pray and pray and pray and pray that someone
(Chorus)
That someone would please tell me it get’s better than this
Cause I can’t keep living (x5) like this
V3
See it was just me my mama and siblings
In that small house, small house
We can’t barely make it so we call out, call out
I been praying as hard as I can, and I still ain’t got no answer
My heart been broken since mama got diagnosed with that cancer
And the doctor’s running tests cause it’s a tumor in her brain
Her body getting weary everyday she in some pain
I want a good job so my parents can relax
But I’m spending all my weekends getting turnt up to the max
Cause I just lost my Aunt Tracy I swear I can't lose another
And the cops is out here shooting, I swear I can't lose my brother
I cling to God so he can watch over my lil' cousins
Cause I swear I don't know what'd I do if I lost my mother
Im supposed to be in shape sleeping and making good grades
Working towards a future, but the future doesn’t look great
I'm supposed to be social and building myself a love life
But I been so broken in the past that I don’t think I can love right
But it was just me my mama and siblings in that small house, small house
I wrote a song to finally get it all out, all out
Im getting to the point where I can’t write another letter
So someone please tell me it gets better
Oh my goodness
