[Chorus: Pauletta]
You’re covered in scars, you’re hurting
But when you burn you learn
I know one thing for certain
You’re the definition of a soldier now, warrior
I need you to hold it down
They can hate if they want
I won’t be phased, I won’t run
Definition of a soldier now
[Verse 1: AP Venom]
I say…
Sum up 2018 in one word, lessons
Sum up all your lessons in one word, blessings
I found me a home in many hearts, too many mansions
I’m not about to call nobody out, too many mentions
When the road got rough, I hit the road and stayed healthy
Enemies think they’ve got me figured out, they never met me
Damn lately, I’ve been going through a lot of changes
But I’m only going through them I promise they won’t change me
I also made a lot of what we call friends
Most of them won’t even text first
Well, except for when they need help
You see then, when life got ‘em drowning in the deep end
The only time they realize there’s you in this existence, but oh well
What can I do, I’m only human
I can only wish them well, happy new years
It’s true, yes. This year I’ll be quick to close curtains
[Chorus: Pauletta]
You’re covered in scars, you’re hurting
But when you burn you learn
I know one thing for certain
You’re the definition of a soldier now, warrior
I need you to hold it down
They can hate if they want
I won’t be phased, I won’t run
Definition of a soldier now
[Verse 2: AP Venom]
If there’s one thing I know that I’m not, selfish
But people are weird, people are twisted
I learned when you have a good heart, they take advantage
But it never really gets them far, check their mileage
A conversation about somebody’s life, don’t even start it
Hit me up with something that could get us money in our pockets
Tread carefully, gossip gets you misinformed
Wonder why you always see me with my headphones on
Last year I had to learn to cut people off
Met a nigga in need, treated him like he’s my brother
And I did it just to help him, not for favors
But the same person had the nerves to steal from me
Had me asking myself, like, am I kind or stupid
I’m kind of stupid, I guess
I fed you when no one would, how could you do me like that
You don’t get what you give, I had to learn that fact
I’m no longer who I was back then
[Chorus: Pauletta]
You’re covered in scars, you’re hurting
But when you burn you learn
I know one thing for certain
You’re the definition of a soldier now, warrior
I need you to hold it down
They can hate if they want
I won’t be phased, I won’t run
Definition of a soldier now
[Verse 3: AP Venom]
Man, I got real messed up second semester
In September I lost my Grandpa
Then in October I lost my Grandma
To Grandma the queen who brought me up
You said you wouldn’t make it, but I had my fingers crossed
But you saw ahead of time, you were right all along
You wouldn’t be around by the time I got this job, I’m really cross
My goal was to get you everything you wanted
I guess fate didn’t allow it
It brings me so much pain when I think about it
That I devised a plan, but it fell flat
Time to face facts and really accept that time will never turn back
And I can just sit back and blame it on the setbacks that I’ve had but instead, I’m just sad
I need a lifesaver, my heart is drowning deep in regret
Didn’t come and see you just as much as I should have
It’s too late, I still remember when
I told lame jokes and had you crack up, damn I really miss that
Though my heart is filled with should have beens and could have beens
In my heart you will never die, may you rest in peace…please
