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First Lyrics by Ashford

Patterns

2020

[Verse 1]
It's been awhile
Since you made up your mind
And I knew this day would come
Kept it from conversation
I tried
Selfish as it was
And I hate
The fact that I'm obsessed
It only makes me feel worse
And it hurt
The frustration and the stress
Of wanting to be first

[Chorus]
Well I know that I'm not special
But I wanted to feel so
But selfishness consumed me
And I couldn't let you go
I held you like a captive
Until the deed was done
But all I wanted was to be
The first and only one

[Verse 2]
Time’s been passing
You've been waiting so long
For my frantic needs to be met
Impatience grows
You know my actions are wrong
But I haven't let go yet
When we speak of it
Our words are cold like ice
And talking is hard to do
Hesitation
Has always been my vice
Patience, your virtue

[Chorus]
Well I know that I'm not special
But I wanted to feel so
But selfishness consumed me
And I couldn't let you go
I held you like a captive
Until the deed was done
But all I wanted was to be
The first and only one

[Bridge]
Now we're here
After all this time has passed
The wait will end this time
Thought from then on
I'd let you free and relax
But I'm still unsatisfied
Cause when I thought that it was over
A foolish danger attacked
And I had no way to defend
And arrogance
Didn't pay me back
Cause being first meant nothing in the end

[Chorus]
Well I know that I'm not special
But I wanted to feel so
But selfishness consumed me
And I couldn't let you go
I held you like a captive
Until the deed was done
But all I wanted was to be
The first and only one
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Ashford

Ashford

About “First” by Ashford

Read the complete lyrics to "First" by Ashford from the album "Patterns" in 2020. On Lyrks you can follow along with the full text, explore the artist's discography, and discover related songs. The track is often categorized under Pop-Punk, Emo, Rock.

"First" is performed by Ashford. from the album "Patterns" in 2020 This page provides the full lyric text for fans who want to sing along, study the songwriting, or compare versions across releases. Lyrks organizes lyrics by artist and song slug so you can bookmark and share a stable URL. Music lyrics help listeners connect with emotion, narrative, and rhythm in a track. Whether you are learning English, researching a favorite chorus, or preparing for karaoke, having accurate line breaks and section labels (verse, chorus, bridge) makes the experience easier. We link to the official artist profile on Lyrks where available, including biography snippets, top songs, and chart placements when we have that data. If you enjoy "First", explore more songs by Ashford using the links below. Chart and trending pages on Lyrks highlight what listeners are searching for this week. For copyright or correction requests, see our DMCA and contact pages.

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"First" is credited to Ashford. Songwriting credits may include additional writers listed on the release; check the credits section on this page for linked collaborators.

"First" appears on "Patterns" in 2020.

Visit the Ashford artist page at /artist/ashford for biography, popular tracks, and links to more lyric pages.

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