PART 1: nothing really changes
[Verse:]
I don't really wanna live but I carry on
The only thing I got to give another scary song
I'm afraid of who I am when the night fall
Everybody think they know you but they very wrong
I know exactly how you feel I'm the same too
This world turned the blood flowing in my veins blue
You could never really hurt me how this pain do
I did this all to myself, could never blame you
Been tryna change who I am but this never works
Wish I had some better words, how you gonna win
When you know you wasn’t ready first?
Dying by yourself all alone man I bet it hurts, too afraid of failure
But a coffin with regret is worse
Digging through your purse for a pill
Used to be happy can’t reverse how you feel
Stripping on a pole gotta work for the bills
Then she went and lost her way tryna search for the trills, yeah
& I see that shit, we all looking for something
You wanna be that bitch
You got somebody who love you & I could plead that fifth
I got a body full of uppers because I need that lift; baby
The way we living is crazy
How he started with a Honda now he whip a Mercedes?
I got my mind on my money, I ain't tripping on babies
On god, word to Jesus ain't nobody could save me
Who I'm playing man that shit would be nice, but dim the lights
If the devil really buying my soul I'd sell it twice
I'm just really tryna smoke, I'm in need of no advice
They almost sold me a dream until they showed me the price
You know what I mean?
Like when your light doesn't glow like it seems
So I've been smoking I've been drinking tryna blow off the steam
Living life in episodes you tryna grow in between
Don’t believe in every single thing they show on the screen
PART 2: love doesn't last
[Verse 1:]
I miss the days when I could call you on the phone
Before the only thing I knew was being all alone
I miss the days before we went our separate ways
Now i know its not a phase and I'm really better on my own
Everything I put you through I know it hurts still
Second time never hits you like that first will
What goes around come baby, true shit
I ain't worried bout it cause I know how the worst feel
True dirt bag, but this ain't nothing new
I pretend it's someone else when I'm fucking you
Thats the first time I told you something true
You ain't doing nothing for me that these drugs will do
All those texts in my phone get deleted quick
I remember once upon a time I used to read the shit
But if you remember right I think you played me
Told you that I loved you... all you did was plead the fifth
God damn baby, ain't that a shame?
My heart turned cold and I think you to blame
Could’ve had my baby could've changed up your name
But that should’ve, could’ve, would’ve maybe just ain't the same so
Every single day of the week I'm in the booty club
Abusing drugs, hotels for the groupie love
I don't ever catch feelings I just pull the plug
If you ask me how I'm doing I'ma do the shrug
And I heard you doing bad, I hope you pull through
Yeah the jokes on me, but look who fooled you
Taking shots to the head like I'm bullet proof
& I hate you cause I love you that's the full truth
I'm in need of something good that's what my soul lack
7 fucking years of my life I'd never go back
Truly wish I never met you thats a whole fact
But who we kidding baby you already know that
[Hook]
[Verse 2:]
I got a 100 texts in my phone 20 missed calls
With your name on 'em like you going through some withdrawals
Pressing all my buttons make me hit 'em with the bitch pause
Blowing out a fuse like you got the jump cross crossed
I ain't gonna waste my time, I'm getting to it
Need to slow down double up the brake fluid
Heard I got the shows on the low going stupid
I be doing all the movements but really I'm going thru it
Cause your best friend on my side line, she blowing me up
My ex broke up wit her man and she knowin wassup
I'm bout to fuck 'em both pouring something slow in my cup
And I ain't tryna lead you on, I know you go through enough
You got your man on the side and Baby Jay on the fence
So we be on and off creeping, shit ain't making no sense
When I'm out you sub tweeting, I've been takin the hints
I'm in the studio recording then I'm making the prints
It's going platinum or it's gold, I ain't really worried bout it
Need the cash up front the venue surely getting crowded
Cause my name on it, built it from the dirt to the mountains
Throwing money out the whip drunk swerving when I count it
Henny bottles turn to fountains when I'm makin a movie
Couple mollys losing count the way we taking em truly
I got another 30 minutes of her making it groovy
You better give it all you got before you wake up and lose me
[Outro]
