[Hook]
My life ain't sweet, it started with a turn
Seems that every bad thing is shit that I have earned
My heart is closed because of everytime that I've been spurned
Tbh, I may have reached the point of no return
[Verse 1]
What I'm doing is really just none of your concern
I'm gonna do what I want, Jesus, will you ever learn?
Everytime I open up, all those bridges burn
It's cuz no one listens like I'm an unpaid intern
I swear I'm empathetic, sympathetic, feel emotion
But I just don't like sharing, caring, causing a commotion
I keep life going, hoping to always stay in motion
I apologize that progress is my top devotion
You know the other day I think I had a revelation
Everywhere I go, I bring destruction, devastation
Like a runaway train, and it's speeding out the station
But hey, at least I'm two degrees away from Kevin Bacon
[Hook]
My life ain't sweet, it started with a turn
Seems that every bad thing is shit that I have earned
My heart is closed because of everytime that I've been spurned
Tbh, I may have reached the point of no return
[Verse 2]
Big Ro's out, so it's Ryland Cole taking lead
I hate to say my government, but that is really me
Coming out of hiding, yeah I'm coming out the weeds
The darkest side of everything the general public sees
I'm afraid to fail, and I'm scared to succeed
I don't know where that leaves me, but how do I proceed?
Stuck in a kind of limbo, leaving me to bleed?
I relinquish control, fuck it man, I concede
I give y'all my life, you can do what you want with it
It's a little fucked up, but you might have fun with it
At a point in the past, I had thought that I won this shit
But now, I'm ready to lay down and just be done with it
[Bridge]
I got some decent time left, but I'm working towards freedom
You're stronger than them Ryland, you can beat em
Their negative perceptions only work if you feed em
The tattoos on your chest are reminders when you need em
You've heard all the lessons in the world, now you heed em
It allows you to do everything you've ever dreamed of
And while I wish that those bastards would just ease up
Right now, your top priority is to please em
[Hook]
My life ain't sweet, it started with a turn
Seems that every bad thing is shit that I have earned
My heart is closed because of everytime that I've been spurned
Tbh, I may have reached the point of no return
[Verse 3]
Next month, it'll be 6 years that I've been smoking
Nicotine and weed were my best two ways of coping
And that snowballed to where you won't see me voting
Not like I care, they all suck, I'm only kinda joking
I'm tryna quit Newports, and only just vape
So that my family don't see my face in yellow tape
It's currently my only way to feel a great escape
But lemme tell you, that first smoke was a grave mistake
My dad tried to tell me, but I didn't listen
I was tryna be cool, man I was on a mission
I saw myself as semi-popular, I had a vision
I saw peace, I never would've guessed that I'd see prison
I didn't really, I just saw county jail
3 weeks in there, and then I posted bail
I also spent some time in JDC, that's kiddie jail
Spent my 18th birthday locked up, man it was hell
I had this fake ass dude living in my cell
My dumbass that us as friends would go well
And honestly, 2020 doesn't ring a bell
Who fucking cares? It's not good to sit and dwell
[Hook]
My life ain't sweet, it started with a turn
Seems that every bad thing is shit that I have earned
My heart is closed because of everytime that I've been spurned
Tbh, I may have reached the point of no return
