[Verse 1: Sebz]
To Rana, I miss you
It's been ten years ever since you
Hate them words, I don't wanna continue
I'm sorry that I haven't come to see you
I wish you were here 'cause since that day
Things got worse and nothin' has changed
Maya and Amelia are grown up now
But I see upset when I look at their face
No one cares 'bout what's going on
If you can hear me, I hate this song
Some nights I can't even sleep
'Cause your daughters are crying for help
And you're gone
I know how they're feeling
I can't believe I'm still waiting
For my father to come back
And I'm crying 'cause I shouldn't tell you
That girls don't live with their dad
And it's sad
'Cause Amelia she doesn't even speak no more
It's not her fault she lost her Mum
But why she gotta lose one more?
Everyone keeps asking me, "Why shit always angry for?"
Like after all of these years
Non-stop pain, non-stop tears
She feels like there's nothing to lose
Please try to put yourself in their shoes
I really try to understand
What was the plan when the only person
That gave 'em the world is under this tomb?
I don't know what to do
Your sister is sick, the pain in her heart
From all of the shit my dad putting her through
I don't wanna take my life away
I just want to see my auntie's face
If I had the choice to make, to replace
You would put me in the grave
I'm sick of this place
The only reason why I'm still doing music
Is maybe one day my father's watching me
On TV and he'll recognise my face
[Hook: Sebz & Izzy]
I've got so much pain
Even though you're back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
I'll take the blame
How can I trust you ever again if you can't explain?
Please explain
I feel like I'm living in hell
That's why I'm always screaming for help
I don't wanna hear you say that you love me
How can you love me
When I don't even love myself?
Can someone please explain?
'Cause I'm just tryna find my way
I've got so much pain
Even though you're back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
I'll take the blame
How can I trust you ever again if you can't explain?
Please explain
[Verse 2: Izzy]
Dear Dad
I just turned twenty-three
And I still can't believe that you're not here
'Cause Mum told me you were overseas
And that one day you'll be back
Why was she crying when she told me that?
Sebz's out in the streets
And I'm still asking, "Where you at?"
Now I'm wiping the tears
Off my Mum's face
But I'm falling in the rain
I don't even know who I'm writing anymore
'Cause I'm drowning in the pain
This is my last letter, we could've been so close
But you pushed me away
And I don't wanna sit here writing an essay no more
Can you please explain?
'Cause I'm so tired of these introductions
I wanna know your side of the story
I'm not making assumptions
But why did you leave me?
I'm old enough to have that discussion
I know I've made mistakes
But my life didn't come with instructions
So look at me now, I worked hard
Put my head down, had to level up
'Cause you're a let down
Had to show up, make my Mum proud
Be a better man, 'cause you're not around
And I thank God, that's who I am now
I remember when I saved up 2k
Shot my first video, and look what I've made now
But I still love you, nah nah nah
Man I fucking hate you
After everything that you put us through
Was it worth it?
Tell me, was it fucking worth it?
I'm hurt that we never spoke before
I've took that turn
But now it's too late
Fuck this letter, just burn it
[Hook: Izzy]
I've got so much pain
Even though you're back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
I'll take the blame
How can I trust you ever again if you can't explain?
Please explain
[Verse 3: Sebz & Izzy]
Sebz?
Yeah?
I know I'm not here anymore
But you've gotta keep your head up
I can't do it on my own, lil' bro
It was me and you from the start
But now that you're gone, I swear on your grave
I'm always carry on a brother's name
Ignite that flame and burn them gronks
They've always got somethin' negative to say
'Cause they don't wanna see us up
They just wanna see us fall
They hate it everytime we win
That's why it's always "Fuck 'em all!"
I don't wanna do this on my own, Izzy, I don't
I hate that I can't even pick up the phone
And Mum just sits at the front of the house
It's like she's waiting for you to come home
Why'd you make it away?
I know that I've made a mistake
You weren't just my brother, you were my best friend
And now it's too late
Just please, bro, tell Mum to go inside
'Cause I'm not coming home tonight
I can feel her pain when she cries
Wipe all her tears off her eyes
And I'll never forget the letter Dad wrote us
First word I read was "Son"
"If you're reading this, I'm sorry boys"
"But I had to do what I done"
"I pray one day that God will bring us back together"
"Me, you, your brothers, and your Mum"
"But just for now, son, I gotta leave"
"'Cause I really don't like the man I've become"
Wait, Izzy, I have to tell you something
I know your dad hurt you when he left
But guess what?
He came back and he wants to explain
That's what he said
Look, Sebz, don't be upset
I have no regrets, you'll always be my brethren
And if they ask "What happened to Izzy?"
I'll tell 'em, "He died a fucking legend"
[Hook: Sebz & Izzy]
I've got so much pain
Even though you're back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
I'll take the blame
How can I trust you ever again if you can't explain?
Please explain
I feel like I'm living in hell
That's why I'm always screaming for help
I don't wanna hear you say that you love me
How can you love me
When I don't even love myself?
Can someone please explain? (Please explain, please)
'Cause I'm just tryna find my way (My way back home)
I've got so much pain
Even though you're back in my life now
It won't be the same
I know I've been praying for this day
I'll take the blame
How can I trust you ever again if you can't explain?
Please explain
