[Cardi B, Ramona]
Trust me. Words go around, and the-
Yes.
The world is small! Like...
Yes, yes!
The world is so small!
Yes, oh my god. Um, okay so... uh- forgive me, my head's- all over the place, um... A couple of days ago, you were supposed- D- did you do the reading and sent it-
Yeah, I did that.
Okay.
I- I did. I read it, I auditioned on it- on camera-
Nice.
I sent it to them, and then the next day, it's like "Oh yeah, we filming for it!"
Holy shit! Um- I had no idea- it was gonna go that quickly.
Yeah!
Okay, great! Um, so- were you able to- get into your charactеr? Wha- how was- what was the role like?
Um... Thе character- I was so happy that the character- She- sh- her- she has- she's kinda similar to me, so I didn't have to- do a role- didn't have to be extremely dramatic or ex- extremely out of my element.
Did it- start to become difficult to tell the difference- between yourself and the... character-
I mean... um... It's- it's different. Just because you think it's similar- it's different.
...Yeah.
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah.
Like- It's like... would you call a cameraman a photographer because they both have cameras? No.
No. Yeah. Okay yeah, that makes sense. But um- yeah! So- so any way, this is fantastic news! Um, I- I don't have any of my things- with me, so I- I don't remember which show- it is or- y- talkin' about, but it's very, very popular-
Yeah!
And um, we've been talkin' about "What is Cardi B's next move gonna be?" So- I, uh- There's a lot of money in this-
Yeah!
And- and you know, um- a visual- a reoccurring role is more- tangible, for the human- for the people in the world. Um- you know, sound, uh- can- it- it can often be quite- h- ha- haunting in- in abstract, so-
Um, definitely. Like-
Um, I- I know that this is a really great... next... step to-
Yeah!
Capitalize... on... your- momentum...
Yeah!
So- this is a really great next step. And um, this- this is a good thing. This is a good thing... Right?
It's- it's a- it's a 50/50 thing to be honest with you, like... Matter of fact... when I was- when I was younger, right? And I see a lot of these uh, celebrities committing suicide... I always tell myself "Why they committing suicide, they're rich! I wanna commit suicide, I'm broke! I'm broke!" I go- "Why y'all wanna die, y'all got money! Who wants to die, y'all got money! Y'all famous!"... Into like... Now I'm kinda in their shoes, and it's like- I know why. The peer pressure, the- the critics... It just drives you... kinda like, insane. And some people was telling me like "Oh, you shouldn't care about what people say" and this and that. You're not in my shoes. Like- it's like, I used to beg, I used to pray to God like "Please, God, change my life! Please-" I used to work in Amish Market, like "Please, God, I need help! I'm so hungry. Like, I'm so broke!" But I was happy, because- I get to do whatever I want. And- I was- and I could've have an opinion and I wasn't limited to the things I wanted to come out of my mouth. And I felt- and I felt pretty and I have- millions of people tryna change- me. I was happy... Like, I was happy. Sometimes, I feel like... depressed, because it's like... I feel like people don't even love me anymore for... Bacardi, Belcalis. I feel like sometimes people don't even love me, for me. Like, I feel like people just love- the clout. People like the fact that like, "Yeah, my girl got money now." Like, "My girl- is a gettin' money bitch. My bitch gets in here. My bitch is s- right there." It just made me feel like, "Wow, am I ever gonna find real love for me?"
Oh my god, a- I... I- You know what, Cardi? I- I'm sorry, my re- my back- my- my neck or m- my spinal cord is- is really killin' me. I had an accident and there's- there's somethin' wrong with me. So I'm- I'm- I'm a little distracted-
That means you don't really like me because who- who I am. You like me, cause... cause "Cardi".
No, Cardi- or- or Belcalis. No, I just really need to go- home right now. Because- I actually found what you said- extraordinarily- touching- and v- vulnerable and... uh- it makes me uncomfortable. I'm at this place- myself, right now where I'm- I think I'm starting to- really- question what the fuck I'm... doing. Or like what... I... am. Or- or- or what is this-
You know, it's just- It's fake, like porn-
