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SUICIDE
Prod. Rodrigo Muñiz
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[Intro]
Smoke another one, 'cause I never made the cut
Take it to the lungs, 'cause I don't have a heart
Rather go slowly, instead of acting tough
Something's not right (Uh-huh)
It's not enough
[Hook]
So I drive more reckless, Smoke more conscious
Gotta hurt myself, just so I can kill the monster
The whisper is constant, don't sleep at night
Something's not right
I don't wanna fight
[Verse 1]
I woosah about 9 times a day, I'm trying hard to stay calm
I'm tryna do what I have to, so I can get what I want
And is it really a want, when it's the shit that I need?
I fantasize having funds to fund my family dream
I don't have the energy, My own worst enemy
I am not okay, but fuck it, I can pretend to be
Dealing with the stresses, Coping with the strain
How many times I gotta say this?
"I don't feel sane!"
I lay in bed, live in my head
I hang myself daily
I love the taste of death
I'm on the ledge, I live on the edge
In hopes that I slip and meet with my end
Smoke cigarette, to fuck up my chest
"Have faith in God, there's no need to stress."
That's what they said when I was in Church
But I don't trust the Pastor
It just made it worse
[Pre-Hook]
Smoke another one, 'cause I never made the cut
Take it to the lungs, 'cause I don't have a heart
Rather go slowly, instead of acting tough
Something's not right (Uh-huh)
It's not enough
[Hook]
So I drive more reckless, Smoke more conscious
Gotta hurt myself, just so I can kill the monster
The whisper is constant, don't sleep at night
Something's not right
But I don't wanna fight
[Outro]
I'd rather just die, inside...
I'd just rather die, inside
I don't wanna cry or smile
I'd just rather die, inside
[The Conversation with Apostle Ashley Sauls]
Apostle Ashley Sauls: But if you really go to a relationship with God then it comes to the place where, you, you; this is Spiritualism; where you cannot explain God...
Neither do you attempt to do it
Because what religion actually is; no matter what face you give it; but on it's foundational premise
"What religion is"; my definition; is "A failed human attempt to explain God."
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Smiling Depression ft. Brennan Bates
Prod. Lucid Sounds
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Shhhh, Shhhh
[Intro] Champú
Due to my lack of will to live once in a while, I try to smile
I fade to black, I always give
- Don't wanna cry
- Much rather die
[Hook] (Bates & Champú)
I don't wanna smile
No, I won't smile
I feel numb inside
Why, should-I, smile?
Say, I don't wanna smile
No, I won't smile
I feel dead inside
So why the fuck should I smile?
[Verse] Champú
Shrug it to the side, don't let it show
Don't let them see, They'll think you're weak
Hide it from the world, don't let them see
Don't be selfish, this ain't healthy
Hide it from my Momma-
"Nah, I'm just tired", but I am a Soldier, I am a Champion
Hide it from my Baby-
"Girl I'm just tired", but I am unhappy, I feel so empty
I feel alone, I always have, I have my doubts, I have my fears
Seen better days, don't feel so great-
Since I was eight, its been a few years
And, whatchu think about me?
What you think, I give a fuck? Huh?
You must be lost, 'cause I really don't
I'm not okay tho, but I'm gon' be fine
They want me to smile-
Fuck, I really won't
[Pre-Hook] Champú
Due to my lack of will to live, once in a while, I try to grin
But I fade to black, I always give
I don't wanna cry
I'd much rather die
[Hook] (Bates & Champú)
I don't wanna smile
No, I won't smile
I feel numb inside
Why should I smile?
Say I don't wanna smile
No, I won't smile
I feel dead inside
So why the fuck should I smile?
(Why the fuck should I smile, yeah, uh)
[Outro]
Whatchu think about me?
What you think, I give a fuck?
You must be lost, 'Cause I really don't
I'm not okay, but I'm gon' be fine
They want me to smile
Fuck, I really won't
(I really won't)
[Declan's Mom]
Chad
Can you please, please get Declan to contact Chanel
She is extremely stressed out regarding tonight's function. Why are you two being so immature?
Get Declan to call Chanel !!!
(I really won't, I really won't)
- I actually did, sorry for taking so long to respond that Friday afternoon Aunty Lee. ilysm xoxo
