[Intro]
I always knew I’d be great… that’s just how I feel...
[Verse 1]
This a story of the “struggle.” Ain't no busting guns or rumbles
This a story of the flyest youngin - call me up, I'm down to pull a double
I was broke but never crumbled. Laying low and out of trouble
I've been living on my own since before I even even had a stubble
Let me tell you ‘bout a story, starting ‘bout a year from 1995
Doctors went and told my mother, if she had me, that she wouldn't be alive
Short story - sad story - both parents really went to see the God
Except one was in disguise… Can't confirm it or dеny
So we keep swimming all up in the tank. Had to move in whеre I couldn't stay
15, I had to tell my sister “pick me up” - I got my clothes and then escaped
16, I had to innovate. Selling CDs when it's hella late
Next thing I know, I'm getting patted down - everybody thinks I'm selling dank
Same year as when them hittas stepped to me saying “Boy, you tryna die??
Take that hat off on that on this side! Ain't no hoods on after five”
Now I'm 19 working Citibank and - oh - I'm in a suit and tie
One hundred racks up on the side! Think it's boutta be a crime!
All this money, I'mma get it on my independent any day in life
That's the only thing I liked. Knew it was the key to life
Got me counting up the shifts that I could've missed on every given night
Another day - another site. Damn, I'm bound to miss a wife
All ships don't sail. Maybe that's true. No one said “nice”
How I know? ‘cause when I put a song up, I might get two likes
This is how we flowing now. This is how it’s going now
Everything's gon’ change, baby. It's a struggle but it's for now and cool...
[Chorus]
I’m relaxed while I’m anguished
You ain’t got the tools… I’m like “facts! That’s the way it is.”
Just like ain't lose - I’m intact! I’mma vanquish
Different from my youth, I know what matters. I just savior it!
I ain’t gotta use open hands - only life hacks!
Who designed the rules? I advance - oh, it’s typed back!
Just like diamond jewels, I'm enhanced when the price jacks!
'Til you've got my shoes, you won't fathom where my life's at! (hmm, yeah yeah)
[Verse 2]
Someone tell me how to feel
Someone tell me how to deal
I kinda struggle with connection
Plus, I ain't even being real
All these mental obligations...
Swear I never get to heal
I thought I knew what's in my own thoughts
But now I question who's the that spiels
Conversations 'bout the feels
Got me thinking all concealed
I remember when I wasn't
Then I quickly learned to answer what appeals
It's like I'm looking in your eyes
But that's my shadow at the wheel
It's like I'm scared all the time, yet, my biggest fear is never feeling zeal
I hate I struggle with compassion
If I had parents, I would ask them
25 years old. Eleven more to go -
It's crazy I'll pass them
Damn, your baby's out in Aspen!
Man, I might just need a napkin
For all the times I thought I'd never make it
Like I simulated, yet, reacted cool...
[Chorus]
I’m relaxed while I’m anguished
You ain’t got the tools… I’m like “facts! That’s the way it is.”
Just like ain't lose - I’m intact! I’mma vanquish
Different from my youth, I know what matters. I just savior it!
I ain’t gotta use open hands - only life hacks!
Who designed the rules? I advance - oh, it’s typed back!
Just like diamond jewels, I'm enhanced when the price jacks!
'Til you've got my shoes, you won't fathom where my life's at! (hmm, yeah yeah)
[Outro]
Felt comfort with “alone"... with a 100 in my zone
Stood tall… stood proud… 5'7… 12 stones
Disgraced… been wronged… no dates… no loans
Tough way is my style… Heartbreak's my home
