"We'll all become what we hate the most at times. It's the struggle against that person that makes us able to speak the truth. In time this will be one more scar, and you'll look be to for strength, trust me when I say this for I was there, and now I'm here and the pains there only in the memory. Everything passes in time and begins anew. It's the times when the bullshit starts again, that you hear His presence and warning sign and reminder that even the most bitter taste can heal."
[Tones]
My whole entire life had to deal with heart issues
Jumping out moving cars, trying to heal the scar tissue
We all become what we hate the most at times
The pain is still there but it's only in the mind
Underneath the black clouds, knowing nothing but hurt
If you felt the verse then you were touched by the words
I wonder everyday how old I want to live to be
Or what I'd give to see a vision, would could ?? to free
Struggling against that person, that ?? isn't me
It's a battle between what I show and the inner me
Deep in concentration, soul contemplating
My destiny, my energy, my memory fade
Cuz in time you look back and realize
You are best in essence to even be alive
And all the truths kept in your brain are real
And proof that even the most bitter of pains can heal
[Coast]
She scares for my soul but they already heal
Try to figure out where I lost control of the deal
It's like scar tissue that I wish you saw
Sarcasm mr. know-it-all
I can't take no more man, the way raw
Push me down in a hole, put me under the floor
It's like I'm fighting with myself but it's bigger than that
Like I love what I hate, man I figure it's wack
Speaking on life, destiny is holding the mic
It's like it's true what I said mothafucka I write
I spent hours in my head, I'm already dead
I don't really feel remorseful, it was already said
I need answers, cancer's infecting the world
If I live will I give what I got to the ??
I blame God for this gift but I'm saying my prayers
Let me in when I ring and I'm coming upstairs
[Coal Cash]
I'm covered in scars, been picking at scabs relentless
I send this to the stars, still waiting for God to end this
Mend this in our hearts, the parts are barely working
Not certain to where to start, I depart to find that person
Who spent his time ?? rehearsing with skills bursting
Immersed in staying ill, tryna build a perfect version
Adverb and kill a sermon, burn vermin to the ??
If the thrill was worth the yearning, earning props on top of burning
Confirming I was turning this burning to a flash flood
Fuel the room with hate as I escaped to what the mask was
With vast drugs to bug shrug the burden, hide the hurting
Working to stay alive but I died inside that person
Somehow I survived to arrive inside a stranger
But the scars are just my sides to reflect the tides of anger
So now I hang a noose for when that ego boost is felt
It helps the scars become the proof of how I used to be myself
[Tabs]
There's a hundred ways I fucked up, a thousand things I done wrong
A million ways to run amuck, it's hard to sum it up in one song
I admit I'm guilty, my hands got filthy for the progress
I knew it would make me strong if it didn't kill me in the process
I had to start over and swallow every ounce of pride
That ?? have scarred over, and the broken bones have calcified
My dreams they try to kill 'em, and fill them with formaldehyde
But they ain't about to die, shadow of death'll never cloud my sky
It's fate of dark when them poisonous darts hit you
It rips through scar tissue from heart issues that God gives you
But if y'all live through the predicament the bitterness will disperse
No longer to be plagued by the ignorance of this Earth
I know that it hurts but it's barely a limitation
It's liberation from jail if you can prevail through tribulation
I can stare at it blindly, just when I swear it's behind me
I finally become aware there's something there to remind me...sing
