[Verse 1]
Heavily medicated, preferably less sedated
My head invaded recollecting friends that never made it
I scream “I love you” to the sky
For all them times that I’d forget to say it
I wanna change my ways but I just get impatient
This is not a love song
It’s the result of fucking up and getting love wrong
But me I trudge on, I’m giving up on lust, I did enough harm
And steering clear from women who ain’t playing shit but club songs
I can’t exist in clubs cause I’m surrounded by zombies
I be stranded in my mud like I’m supposed to be here
I noticed if I wasn’t putting dent in me mentally over these years
I’d be iight and, I wouldn’t know what to fear
I want these people that listen to know that I’ll be in their corner too
And pray we dedicate our lives to do what we were born to do
I’m warning you
You gotta redefine them labels people putting on to you
So you ain’t torn in 2, just focus on your most important few
I got a chip on my shoulder as big as boulders
I’m too sick up in my soul to admit I been missing quotas
I’m tryna get to know the bonus of us getting older
My goal is spit this soulful shit when I unzip my folder
I wrote this verse at 3am as I was tipping over
Went over high screens, in my zone, they picked and rolled us
This war I fight inside my mind, it made a different soldier
So I don’t pray for lighter loads, I pray for bigger shoulders
True and living Yoda, I exist within the shift
Of changing chasing chicks, to making hits
Can’t let this shit control us
Everyday I’m pitching ways to miss, my faith is getting bolder
I escaped the matrix just to get a taste of this pagoda
Cause I’m God’s son, infantile
He who never sins is who forgives the child
But I ain’t crack my Bible open in a while
And I ain’t living wild but I can’t stand to see the madness
Social media made most us (Moses)
Take commandments from a tablet
But my standards been established from the moon and from the sun
And the more I taste my blood it’s way more ruthless I become
I got a few that might cut through, and I’m pursuing every one
I’m moving units off my truth and I’m gon do it till it’s done
I gave my crews a fix (crucifix)
I know my moms would do it for her son
So I been using up my funds to shoot these videos
Many goals on my docket
Ima profit (I’m a prophet) off this music in my lungs
Cause the more I share my soul it’s way more human I become
I tried to slide niggas my drive, then my savior takes the wheel
These niggas throw a bunch of gas
But I got flames you can’t conceal
Say they crazy ill?
Shit that ain’t no way to make me heal
Cause they can say a bunch of words
But they ain’t saying shit I feel
It’s days I hate me still and loyalty’s a fault to my self
I need some offers but it’s way more I could offer myselfI’m chasing feelings of me making millions off of myself
That little voice inside my head said I should talk to myself
And I said
I’m sick of tryna heal myself through box that I been sliding in
I trip when I reveal myself, it’s Pops I’m seeing signs of him
I’m rioting, inside my mind, my violins might be the sound of violence
If God the one that gave a nigga tears, why would I cry to him?
I’m law attracting, I’m hardly slacking
But I’m often falling back cause nihilism strong as all my passions
If nothing matters I should pause the action
God if you talking back and walking on my darkest paths
Then meet me in the void
You should meet me in the void
Cause see we been devoid
And all my people been destroyed
[Outro]
Go get your life right
