(Verse 1)
My mind is way out in the Wild Wild West
I feel stressed
Even though I know to be alive, that makes me blessed
I’m lucky that I got a family who loves me
I try not to take advantage
But if I do please don’t judge me
Not every day I spend above ground is lovely
Not every day is perfect
I accept the good ones humbly
I love the man up above me, but lord
Why does every single day feel lessеr than before?
I ignored in thе daytime
But when I get into bed
I seem to dream one day I might end up on dateline
To me, writing this song is pen and paper therapy
Not gonna act, but I can’t shake this feeling terribly
For sure, I’m not gonna have an action I’ll regret
But getting bigger makes me wonder, will I be the next Macbeth?
Probably won’t even release this song
I don’t want anyone to take it wrong
Writing makes me feel relieved and strong, like I belong
Why does writing this verse not really take as long?
Why have there been multiple times that I scrapped this song?
Life is a journey I always plan to be along
(Verse 2)
Take one more step before your breath fades
The next day, I hope I win this death game
What have I became?
My name derives from relatives with honor
If I wanna pass it on I gotta start living calmer
This character I made up won’t be here much longer
This song's uncomfortable but that’s the point
It makes it harder
I need to pull myself out
Cause I’m drowning, in a fountain
Of everyone I loved who’s not around me
Every room I am the elephant
Been years since I was relevant, regretting being negligent
My last Will and testament
Unless a change in the tides, I denied when I lied
Better days are coming up, I’m along for the ride
Better days are coming up, I’m along for the ride
(Verse 3)
Better days
Better days
Better days (uh)
Better days are around, finally I feel profound
This life will always rebound, might even even the count
Forget the days I was down, cause now my lyrics are proud
Braggadocious emotions, and living life’s what I’m ‘bout
I’m at an all time high, finally I can speak
I got the courage and now I can finally be unique
I thought I did this for passion, passing a mil' what I seeked
Stayed up too late, started believing my critiques
But now I’m past that, I don’t need cash to feel fortunate
I used to be a ticking time bomb insubordinate
Frustrated, No matter what, I know they must hate it
I couldn’t care less, i used to be so devastated
One more slip is all it took for me to detonate it
I’m the one and only who this song is dedicated
Damn, life gets less hard after you conquer it
I don’t care if down the road, they never honor this
Cause I’m in this, full throttle, don’t know where I’m headed
This life’s never how we intended
Writing lyrics less challenging
At this point, I can write without having to battle things
No more dreaming ‘bout my talent turning ravaging
Now, all my dreams end in natural Springs
Third-person point of view, it saved me
Took a step back, react to misbehaving
(Verse 4)
Ok I took a step back, and really thought about the question
I know I need to learn, I want to understand the lesson
I know you gave me life, I wanted to get close to you
I guess I’m caught up thinking, "What am I supposed to do?"
Lingered over me, I want to die slower, please
Wanted to connect, so I went and wrote to me
Came out as a rap, started doing poetry
In the future, I just want to make it locally
But luckily, I could mostly keep my head on right
Sometimes I lost sight, awake in bed all night
My maximalist side doesn’t care about my mental
I’m my own biggest critic, can’t stop being judgemental
The plentiful benefits drain out the losses
The sorrow it causes, the work never stopping
I wish I got options, to tune out what’s going on
I wish I could focus on one verse I’m flowing on
One day I learned to turn my weakness into lucky charms
New perspective on the world, face it with open arms
That’s why these last three tracks are dedicated to myself
Took me all this time to get these revelations ‘bout wealth
(Verse 5)
Headaches and nausea to make one deposit
Some people trapped in the loop, and they’re falling
Wish I could call them, they‘re just in too deep
Deja vu of a younger selfish me
I don’t like looking back at memories
Tell a dark story, they start taking seats
Then, they look away when you’ve rightfully changed
Just look back at Mac Miller and Wolf Gang
I know it’s not right, but ain’t nothing today
I choose to get down on my knees and prey
Life as an industry plant, hard to face it
That’s why so many rappers started lacing
Celebrities washing up dead in their basement
And people conspiracize, saying they staged it
Before you send, remember who you are hurtin’
One goes too far, and it could all be curtains
