[Intro: T. Phoenix]
Why do I still see your face here in my dreams?
In the corners of my mind, these memories
Through the smoke, the fire and the pain
Didn't think they'd just play over again
Look into the light...
[Verse 1: N'veigh]
Uh
I see the pain in my cousin's eyes
Shit is hard for him to care because his mother died
Nothing making sense to him, I guess he's horrified
He couldn't see the light because the pain done brought his darker side
See the liquor is what this nigga lost his focus in
I'm thinking man this nigga lost his closest kin
How is he gon' make it out?
How he gon' hold it in?
How is he supposed to take it out cause he done closed it in?
Damn! Started popping up sours
I sat him down, we started talking for hours
Had to make him understand, that life is like a garden and God only picks the blossoming flowers
He said, "Man it hurts and it's painful, how could he just take my mom? I thought he's honest and faithful"
Sitting here I hope this life doesn't change you
He took your mom but he got you an angel, that's right
[Verse 2: Deekaydidit]
I spoke to God like "Homie don't let me down"
Next thing I'm in a crowd and my daddy deep in the ground
I heard them whisper "How they gon' make it" like they was proud
I probably would've turned out better with him around
I swear, the pain and mama was all that was raising me
And karma is always finding me like it ain't owed to me
I think '04 was the last time I was happy and sober me
"Don't you ever stop playing", is what I would've told the younger me
I should've made it by now
I shoulda been deep in the bag
Cause my bag of tricks is an endless supply of flows, I'm a menace
Don't need no pass or a cosign, just money for my mom and me
Then blow the rest on the hunnies that said I wouldn't cut it B
I think the biggest loss was me to myself, man I miss the old me
(When praying is a habit, miracles are a lifestyle G, yeah)
[Verse 3: Elliot Bless]
I navigate through the trap
But never claim to be a shooter
Where when black cars pull up, you can tell it's not your Uber
By 10 or 11 you learn the basics to maneuver
And train stations come with an army service recruiter
How ironic we're exposed to PTSD before the ABC's
Saw crack by 6th grade and don't mean a broken TV
Gentrified systems con soles like the Wii
They tried handing me the game but I could tell it wasn't free
Moms shut down, bills ain't paid yet
Alphabet boys hit my pops with slave debt
Still he never caved regardless of any weather
Presence over presents, he gifted me that forever
I still felt lesser though I never felt a gun on my dresser
But in my chambers I had rapid fire thoughts of pressure
Like will my self doubt be my self destruction?
Conscious streaming to spot if I could muster an interruption
But we still fightin'
[Verse 4: Gigi Lamayne]
Popping off like cork screws, it's ridiculous
Popping off like cork screws, let me finish this
Gun in my hand, ain't no other plan but to finish what I didn't start
I knew it from my inner heart
In the wrong place and ghouls in these alleyways
Biggest thing is I can take what I can't replace
I'm moving in circles, my inner being the biggest hurdle
I can't change nothing, that's the funniest
But I cry a lot, past traumas haunt me dude
The heated truth and it scotches like the devil would
You heard of Loch Ness living in these avenues?
So many suicides, but in other news...
I wonder if they'd miss me when I'm gone
On them Billboards charting, I was just another song
Put these pills in your mouth and listen close my dear
And when you done with this life you've got nothing to fear but I was saved
[Verse 5: Pdot O]
I got no soul, I got no life
I got no hope, I got no fight
This shit is killing me
I'm on my own, believe no hype
I got no woes, I got no might, nobody missin me
Literally sinking, I see the door with a missing key
I miss my family, I see the dream
Still clear but God knows, God knows we still work
Body shuttin down from fatigue, my spirit still hurt
Coco dreams, I travel through the next life
Just to see you again, in need of a friend
This is not cool
We gotta eat, this is not food
Don't ever let nobody stop you
In the mist of the darkness, we celebrate the light still
We still fight to ignite dreams (Yhii!)
Uh, God hear my cry
Tell me one day that the pain goes..
Watchin' as the pain grow
[Chorus: T. Phoenix]
Why do I still see your face here in my dreams?
In the corners of my mind, these memories
Through the smoke, the fire and the pain
Didn't think they'd just play over again
Look into the light and see my spirit free
Bring me my love
Bring me my love, oh oh
Cause I can't let go, let go of you
Cause memories don't live like people do oh
(I can't let go, let go of you)
(Cause memories don't live, like people do)
