[Verse]
I look your daughter in the eye
Then break down and cry
The guilt and shame I feel
Knowing that you ain't alive
She's growing up and cuz
I wish you were a part of it
But cos you're gone don't mean
She's gonna grow up fatherless
Though I ain't seen her in years
Man you don't know how hard it is
I see you when I look at her
Don't hate me, I'm sorry
I broke my promises
Told you I got you
But lets be fair
If that was true then Lord knows
That you would still be here
Man where the fuck was I? (fuck was I)
I've asked a hundred times
Though I ain't one to lie
I never believed you when you told me
You wanna die
Cos you always told me you wouldn’t
With a convincing smile
Now look, I'm where you should be
I hope you happy
It's supposed to be you and me
I've been so lost, ain't been keeping up the music thing
And truthfully I fucking blame you
Even choked up on your eulogy
Who the fuck said it’s your turn?
I prayed for you and still the demons won
Why the fuck they ain't burn?
Went and tried to search the Bible for the answers
But as of lately, dog, me and God ain't been on good terms
Why the fuck he didn't save you? (save you)
Nah I don't wanna pray
It sucks, but I get why you ain't wanna stay
My heart still breaks
Man you thought your death was
Gonna bring us all closer
But it only pushed us all away
I’m sorry for the pain that you felt
But you were supposed to fight it
Not inflict some more on yourself
We could've figured shit out
Taken a different route
But you thought of your own feelings
And forgot everyone else
And now it's too late to say these words that I've said
I'd shout it out to the Heavens but they left me on read
They say it’s all in my head
But cos of you I’m contemplating suicide
Just to see you again and chill with the dead
I'm sorry
[Hook]
Take this weight up off my shoulders tonight
And let my soul drift away to the light
I feel my legs are getting weary from treading these cold waters
(I'm begging you stay)
But you don't hear me
I've been so low wit' it
Trade my soul for a minute to say
(Blame me, I'm sorry
Let them take me, I'm sorry)
I've been so low wit' it
Trade my soul for a minute to say
(I didn't want you to die
I wasn't ready for our last goodbye)
[Bridge]
(audio message)
[Verse]
I had a dream of the last time we spoke, cuz
I heard your voice on the phone, then I choked up
Said “I got some money for you
If that’s what you’re stressing over
Send me your accounts-” but then I woke up
I wish I had sent it
Maybe it would’ve relieved some stress for a minute
Tell me now was it worth it or do you actually regret it?
All the pain and depression killed you and shit, you let it
Like I said I'm mad as fuck at you but really cuz, I get it
Uh, at least you chillin now
Send our Grandparents my love
Tell my sister whats up
Tell me this what you wanted
I'm sorry we weren't enough
I'm sorry you felt like a burden
Sorry you felt unloved
I just want to share a bourbon with you one last time
It's been years since you passed
You'd think I'd be doing fine
But-but that's not true
There hasn't been a single day where I ain't think of you
I wish we had one more night playing Black Ops 2
I wish you got to see the damage you left
I wish I had the chance to save you
(You did)
Give me another
(Too late)
Fuck, this shit has made me depressed
It plays again my head
Man, I'm sorry I wasn't there
Now I face survivors guilt on my own
Cos I just turned the same age as you were
When you died
And I'll see another day, but you won't
Fuck
[Hook]
Take this weight up off my shoulders tonight
And let my soul drift away to the light
I feel my legs are getting weary from treading these cold waters
(I'm begging you stay)
But you don't hear me
I've been so low wit' it
Trade my soul for a minute to say
(Blame me, I'm sorry
Let them take me, I'm sorry)
I've been so low wit' it
Trade my soul for a minute to say
(I didn't want you to die
I wasn't ready for our last goodbye)
I've been so low wit' it
Trade my soul for a minute to say
(Blame me, I'm sorry
Let them take me, I'm sorry)
I've been so low wit' it
Trade my soul for a minute to say
(I didn't want you to die
I wasn't ready for our last goodbye)
I've been so low wit' it
Trade my soul for a minute to say
(Blame me, I'm sorry
Let them take me, I'm sorry)
I've been so low wit' it
Trade my soul for a minute to say
(I didn't want you to die
I wasn't ready for our last goodbye)
