[Verse 1]
I want in, loathing in fear
If a german love beer and a Jamaican got dreads
How can niggas say it don't depend on who bred
But who left first when the baby adultin next
These kids doin it raw when they have sex
Then depend on the bible verses when everybody looking
I got tooken for ransom like dead bodies in the campgrounds
Sounds never been more silent in detail, they derailin my entrails
Heart failin, palpatations feelin like Daytona 500
MAC knowledge, knowledgists
Them street philosophers the same ones who make it out the hood
My father & my mother good
Just wish they wouldn't give me advice when It's pointless, annoyance
Got better shit to deal with, nearing the end of my sentence
Lessons in oppression, I was destined to be mocked 'cause i'm lightskin
They never saw the chinese until our eyes lock, slanted skate ramps
We be on that kick push shit, It's a fiasco outside
Just don't get ambushed, stop at the amber lights
Was a long night, you never really cared till' I said I was alone
Then I was prey, right?
Moved on too quick, feel like you didn't mind, tied the knot
Then it broke loose
Don't trust these people, was supposed to be equals
See, they was tryna get me feeble, for months, I've been going along for months, I ain't see the evils
Teapots was filled with decrepit strains, hadda' weigh out the gain
I don't see the reigns, can't stop it
All this shit I'm gettin involved with is nonsense, like designer on a newborn baby
You tryna have a baby named Mercedes but don't got no Benz
You tryna get along when there was an end, now I'm finding out a lot
And I think you scared, sayin' prayers for the ones who got them bullet wounds
For the ones who got hit, can we get on with it
Endless marketing, constant scams, constant bargains made
Lotta' dollar menu niggas saved, patiently waiting for a break
Paroxysm happening, ears rattling
Hallway chattering, reckless gathering
[Interlude]
Tell me if you sit back here, in the background here
Uh..
(Laughter)
[Verse 2]
All those arguments you left, all the promises that you didn't keep
Left me on my knees begging for you to stay
Like you once did for me but now I know you was hiding in secrecy
Ain't no defendin, ain't no running back
Hustlin' for quarters, niggas know I got all time
Prolly' got alzheimers
Niggas eating fast food like there ain't no tommorow
Dabblin' in fabulous atrophy & altruism
No altitude gon' stop me from jumpin out that building
Out that window, slug riots, gunfights with sloths & snails
Ain't no pigeons, this ain't new york
Niggas pity talking bout "Good luck, sport."
But who done worse from this muggy ass earth
Who heard the truth, and who got all the perks?
When I turn 30, Imma have a wife by then
When i'm hurting, I'm hoping she gon' comfort me
Instead of just letting it be
Asian women treated like slaves, white women treated like queens
Black women treated like curses, everybody got something to say
Take a day to escape, run into the woods of your backyard
These niggas all envious, they don't know my life until thus far
I'm strugglin' to cope
Aw shit, not again, ruff nigga got his heart cut open
Loten in my vessels, they tried to caress your dick
Make you feel better but they just really actin like a bitch
There ain no fritch, 'cause niggas think they really slick talking my ass
I know everything and I hate it
Remember the wedding rings I planned to get, metaphoric baby showers
Spring flowers gon' wilt eventually
Just like overdue salad, rappin' never got my point across
Singin' never got the anger well, I ain't involved with none of that
I just make art for them niggas that feel alone, just like me
In an environment where they don't belong, just like me
The niggas who wanna die in someone's arms, just like me
The ones who lost like stitch, just like me
Ugly ducklings absolved in a crossfire, I'm done with lying
Done wit these bitch made ass niggas who denied us
Who wanted to puncture a hole into me
No fucking decency at all, lying on the dance floor like just let me leave
Please, I can't stay here for long
Imma die by myself singing these dumb ass songs
