(Chorus)
I got a lot of loneliness feelings
I got a lot of casual dealings
I probably sound mad, cuz I’m screaming
But I’ll blame it on these motherfucking loneliness feelings
I got a lot of searching for meaning
I got a lot of stare at the ceiling
I got a lot of joy, but it’s fleeting
So I blame it on these motherfucking loneliness feelings
(Verse 1)
I believe that I was born a positive person
And I do whatever I can to preserve that version
Of me, I got friends off learning to be lawyers and surgeons
While I’m holed up moping in my home bedroom feeling worthless
Dude you need to curb this, why even assert this?
Don’t you have some homies you could talk to if they heard this?
Sure I got my boys but I’m not tryna be a burden
Plus it’s tough when they ain’t callin like their phone was out of service
I get nervous when I think I think about the future
Life been moving pretty fast Ferris Bueller
Maybe I’m consuming fumes and ruminating over doom and gloom too much
But shit this aging is peculiar, I can confirm the
Rumors Hell yeah, I’m running from my problems
Worried I’ll become one if I don’t open up about em
Worried I’ll have nothing I can write about without em
The self doubt is confounding and thoughts in my head pounding
(Chorus)
I got a lot of loneliness feelings
I got a lot of casual dealings
I probably sound mad, cuz I’m screaming
But I’ll blame it on these motherfucking loneliness feelings
I’m scared I’ll never give you the real thing
I’m scared that I can’t change how I’m living
I’m scared I’ve been a bit too revealing
But I blame it on these motherfucking loneliness feelings
(Verse 2)
Clipped wings, I stay grounded, see people when I’m allowed to
But I’m nobody’s first priority on account of
Significant others, scheduling struggles, no one around so I
Waste my time lounging, eyes glued to a screen browsing
Keep lookin for answers in the camera, call me Fleabag
Out of work, out of weed and out of luck would you believe that
I’m like Beck, I go Dark Places on my own
But I stay stoic, joking so the globe don't see that
In fact, I feel the impact, up in my syntax
Unable to stray beyond my own mishaps
Can’t take the decisions I made, there’s no givebacks
Up late occupying my brain, I can’t relax
Even my iPhone doesn’t recognize me anymore
Could finna use a win because I feel a little losing sore
Even more, I could use a dj booth and concert tour
But it’s lookin like I’m the same rut that got me stuck before
(Chorus)
I got a lot of loneliness feelings
I got a lot of casual dealings
I probably sound mad, cuz I’m screaming
But I’ll blame it on these motherfucking loneliness feelings
I got a self worth that’s depleting
I got confidence but it’s leaving
I try to drive safe, I’m still speeding
So I blame it on these motherfucking loneliness feelings
(Verse 3)
It’s tough to watch your youngness up and walk out of an open door
Never asked but evermore, A past that I cannot ignore
Stagnated, frustrated, and every day I worry more
That I won’t be able to rise to the surprises life has got in store
Tryna chart with this art, and I got the heart
It’s the brain that’s my problem and the hardest part
Smart enough can only take me so far, Get so used to
Failed finishes I can’t tell where to start
To the point I get confused when the news sporting lighter hues
Huey Lewis “heart and soul”, but I sing the blues
I been known to play the fool sometimes, tell me true
Is it too much to want for more than
Just the dude with the Nike suit?
Tryna Bloom, and prove what I think I can do is no Myth
Other People acting Wild but it’s me I need to forgive
It’s a New Year so I’m putting in The Hours until I get
These Wishes granted and my feet planted, but until then I guess
(Chorus)
Gotta handle all these loneliness feelings
Fed up with these casual dealings
I probably sound mad, cuz I’m screaming
But I’ll blame it on these motherfucking loneliness feelings
I got a lot of searching for meaning
I got a lot of stare at the ceiling
I got a lot of joy, but it’s fleeting
So I blame it on these motherfucking loneliness feelings
