[Intro]
Ayy, man, why you feeling sad and depressed these last few days? What's the problem? You ain't showin' up to parties, what's the deal? Stop talking about your feelings, people wanna hear you rap, man, we want you hype!
[Verse 1: Errxl]
I been livin' what I wrote
Barely wakin' in my home
Friends callin' on my phone
Mental hittin' slow
Tokin' spliffs and gettin' stoned
Thinkin' 'bout the shit I owe
I just quit my job and I just wanna go (Agh!)
Since I woke up anxiety is killin' me (Killin' me)
Doses of poison and pulse of impulsiveness is still in me (Still in me)
I'm stressin' late, depressin', askin' what is really up with mе
I'm wastin' away, same subjects I'm recyclin'
Rеwindin' insane tapes in my head
Blindly raping my brain (Agh)
And I'm diggin' up dead wounds and I'm fuckin' fightin' it (Shit)
Pulling her to deep waters, barely breathin' as if it's
Not that I don't love her, I'm full of napalm, guilt and sulfur (Sulfur)
It's obsession and I'm constantly obsessin' over us
But I'm poisoned, all the poisonous guilt I throw on her
I spew venom while poisonous, I'm rotten and I'm soulless
Reachin' lifeless corpse, I'm 'bout to fall, reachin' solace (Solace)
I'm not thinkin' 'bout you
I'm thinkin' 'bout your perfect flaws
Thinkin' of the time when you snapped and scratched me off
Frustrated, in creative anger, on the paper, wrote many songs
Later feelin' anger walkin' down the rainy streets I go
And I see, picturin' rhymes from the deep
Waters, really ain't nothin' but a puddle
See it's reflection on the water and I picture struggle
How we scrapped, fought, yelled, and how we fuckin scuffled
Later end up lost and froze stiff, stuck intrusive
I'm a distorted poet who's tryna reach elusive (Reach elusive)
All the aggression, I ain't ever meant to do this
Different type of upbringing I was brought up ruined, ruined
Ruined poetry, distorted sounds are very soothin'
Distorted sounds are very soothin' (Soothin', soothin', soothin')
(Distorted sounds are very soothin')
[Interlude: Reflessia and Errxl]
Man, why you ain't hangin' no more? You were the man for this shit, dawg!
Come on, bro, why so damn serious? You're always a downer lately
Ayy, man, you got a minute? I got this song I wanna talk to you about
[Verse 2: Jindas]
I got fifty million problems that be crawlin' up my spine (Yessir)
Fuck your goddamn party, I don't really have the time (Fuck)
All these goddamn people just be cloggin' up my mind
I don't give a fuck about a bitch, ain't gettin' a dime (Nah, nah, nah)
I could never hide, I could never lie (Nah)
I could never lay up with a bitch and play the side (Uh-uh)
I could never walk outside the house without the fire
Lately, I've been crazy, movin' hot just like the mob (Hot, hot)
Jindas the reflection of perfected imperfections
In need of recollection, losin' sense with every second
I just need a million dollars cash for interception
Thinkin' about money, I can't stand my momma stressin'
I think I might be deaf 'cause I don't hear what y'all be sayin' (What?)
My character unbreakable, it's not the time for playin'
I got 30 different firearms, these bills are due for payin'
Day in, day out
Thinkin' 'bout a payout
I be on some demon shit, who ready to get laid out? (Who?)
It's not a verse from Jindas without choppas, bring the K out (Grra, grra)
I was strugglin' with my head and then this rap gave me a way out
I'm switchin' flows and seasons, Errxl, Jindas we the wave now
Ma-Ma-Mayday, oppas spint like Beyblade
Stylin' shit like AJ, rap sex tapes like Ray J
Waitin' for my payday (Go, go, go, go, go)
I'm on the road (Road, road)
My demons love when the mantras spinnin'
The Rugged Man taught me Kevorkian vision
Bein' alone, what a horrible feeling
But you gon' need it to shoot through the ceiling
I'm not with the guys in the hood that be sinnin'
Run up, get shot, who the fuck are you bendin'?
Police pull up and you flip like a fitted
I'm solid, I'm chillin', pull up in a gremlin (Skrrt)
You think it's hip, I think it's not (Nah)
I think you should respect my decisions or we can box (Bah)
I think you need to change your approach, would mean a lot (Would mean a lot)
You think that I should rest but I really think I should pop (I should pop)
I was gettin' way too comfortable, now I don't trust a soul
The devil tryna plot on me, he's jealous of this glow
I keep makin' music, will I ever drop a song?
Stick around and find out, it's Jindas, bitch, I'm gone (Woo!)
[Interlude: Errxl]
These are my last words right here
Fuck this shit
[Verse 3: Errxl]
Errxl is sheltered with no guidance
No piece of mind, all he sense is riots
Emotions don't evoke
He's cold, distant, feelings? He hide 'em
Hated myself more since I started
Revisit his grave's, what I always wanted
Last time he was alive I was that kid full of life full of somethin'
Even though I had nothin'
Where's my demise? Why am I sufferin'?
Where's the old friends who I been strugglin' with?
Group died since he dearly departed, shit
Words to AJ, I'd die for you and save your kids
Even though my livin' might face dust
Kisa, I love you but don't let the money change us
To my sister, I'm sorry I feel detached
I ain't ever speak back, but kiss my lil' nephews for me
'Cause them I might don't see
As I put the mask on and aimin' this gun towards me
Killin' Em, creating Errxl
Wish I always played by rules
Wished I always spoke the truth but I didn't
But before I end it all with the rhymes that I've written
You don't need proof when I say I'm proud of all of you
Now I'm pullin' the trigger, saying goodbye to all of you
