Verse 1
I never wanna talk about it, never wanna hear it
I always see the scars, you can hear them in my lyrics
All the things I've ever done are ripping out my spirit
I always pray my end will come, at this point I dont fear it
If I’m looking in the mirror, I see every single flaw
It's always a big deal even if its something small
I didn't choose to be this way, it’s the way the cookie fall
Now they tellin me that I'm breaking every law
Maybe in this life, I was never meant to be here
Maybe every time I feel shit, it was never meant to seem clear
Maybe every bitch that's fucked me over, they was meant to help steer
Maybe that's why I dont cry, I was never meant to shed tears
Now I see the place where I put myself
Now I see everything that won't fix itself
Now I see the family that don't need my help
Now I see the people better off by themself
Chorus
I was never meant to be here
Maybe in this fucking life I was never meant to be here
Shit was doing fine till this pills came, then shit veered
What a wonderful life cause this shit is a reflection of the ends near
Of the ends near
Used to think it was funny, I was blinded by the money
Now that I am signed to Sony, call it holy matrimony
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I was never meant to be here
Maybe in this fucking life I was never meant to be here
Shit was doing fine till this pills came, then shit veered
What a wonderful life cause this shit is a reflection of the ends near
Of the ends near
Used to think it was funny, I was blinded by the money
Now that I am signed to Sony, call it holy matrimony
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
Verse 2
I pray to God it's okay, I pray to God it’s okay
I dont believe in God, but I pray it's okay
Jamie died with me too, we all carry this weight
You was sincere, heard a song and it's weird cause that shit changed
Thought we were chill, now you took this shit to court
Of course, like a sport, you tired, its important
She now rest in peace, rest in peace
I'll never be in peace
I’ll never be in peace
This shit just broke me into pieces
I don't wanna talk about it, but I know it reaches
And Kayla, I'm sorry, I never want the leeches
I lashed out and I did shit, I broke you into pieces
Maybe it's all karma, everything that occured
Maybe it's my fault for spreading all those words
Lying about getting taken away, trust I know that its absurd
I always blame myself, never the ones I hurt
I tried for the longest, to get myself together
I wear the burden of the struggle on me like its leather
I'll never lie like that again and these words mean something special
I never broke a promise since I got my life on schedule
And now I got my baby, she did more than change me
She turned that shit around, helped me deal with Jamie
And I know some scars will always be with me
But I'll know it'll be okay as long as shes with me
Chorus
I was never meant to be here
Maybe in this fucking life I was never meant to be here
Shit was doing fine till this pills came, then shit veered
What a wonderful life cause this shit is a reflection of the ends near
Of the ends near
Used to think it was funny, I was blinded by the money
Now that I am signed to Sony, call it holy matrimony
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I was never meant to be here
Maybe in this fucking life I was never meant to be here
Shit was doing fine till this pills came, then shit veered
What a wonderful life cause this shit is a reflection of the ends near
Of the ends near
Used to think it was funny, I was blinded by the money
Now that I am signed to Sony, call it holy matrimony
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
