[Chorus]
I find it hilarious, people never come to me when I’m precarious
Then they’re asking me why I have turned nefarious
Yeah things I can do make me the scariest
They always act scared when I get serious
Should be running for their life when I’m delirious
Got a dark side of me and that’s insidious
Trust me you don’t wanna learn from experience
[Verse]
Maybe I’m one of a kind, maybe I’m very hard to find
Or maybe I’m hard to pin down, what am I? What is this? What’s going on in my mind?
Or maybe my mind’s tormented, and maybe my anger’s augmenting
Or maybe I can put you six feet under in the ground, and then you can call me demented
Maybe it’s cause you turned your back on me
I’ve done it too, won’t leave you with casualties
It’s one thing lying to me but working against me, that just brings agony
Thought I was lucky but you gave me calamities
See I was tryna live my life happily
I was laying low, ay, you’re my ohana, don’t stitch me up I thought we were family
Clearly not, ‘cause you’re waiting for my demise
You were fake I’m blinded by disguise
Hilarious now you got your eyes on the prize
I got my eyes on your lies, now I’ll say my goodbyes
Try to tear me down cause nobody can match me
Tried to shoot your shot but you barely scratched me
I’m falling down the rabbit hole somebody catch me
Going insane can somebody grab me
Well I guess now you’re down here with me
No escape see the angel within me?
Who is this? That remains a mystery
When we work together, it leads me to victory
But when it works against me, it’s bad, I’ve lost everything that I had
It’s sad, cause I don’t control my life
Can’t stop what I’m doing and it’s making me mad
See this is the side that people don’t see
And this is the side that you don’t wanna be
Not controlling yourself so it ain’t what it seems
Chained up in my body and I wanna be free
Trust me I’ve done bad bad things, done mad mad sins, I’m a sad sad kid
Ain’t evil, had demons, thought mad sad things
Fighting my mind to get an understanding
I feel tortured, but I gotta keep moving forward
They don’t understand me I see that as fortunate
But I pray you don’t have the misfortune of seeing my bad actions extortionate
See I’m trying my best to be better as a person
I’m on my way there, I can say that for certain
Demons are going, say that with assertion
I promise that the new me is the best version
[Bridge]
See that might not cover the scars that I had on my life from before
But that old me is worn out, been thrown out, and now my sanity’s been restored
People can think what they want about me, that’s something I can’t blame you for
But I’ve opened new doors, I’ve gone and explored, and I’m way better now, and we can’t ignore
No we can’t ignore it, there were times where I wanna forfeit
Maybe I should and I’ll go for a bit, and I’ll do my own thing and lay low for a bit
Ex girl she keeps going for it, I’m mad so I need to go chill for a bit
So I don’t kill myself, get put in a spliff
This world it irks me, so I have to admit that
[Chorus]
I find it hilarious, people never come to me when I’m precarious
Then they’re asking me why I have turned nefarious
Yeah things I can do make me the scariest
They always act scared when I get serious
Should be running for their life when I’m delirious
Got a dark side of me and that’s insidious
Trust me you don’t wanna learn from experience (x2)
[Outro]
Ay, ay
Find it hilarious
It's pointless anyway
Why would I do it?
