[Hook]
I need the answer to all the pain
Before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker, waiting in vain
Before all the pain comes back again
[Verse 1]
I don't fuckin get it, well I guess I never got the point
'Cause All I ever do today is disappoint
And I don't hear a person when I hear my voice
All I hear is pain, all I see in me is just a void
And what I'm thinkin now this shit is deeper than depression
I feel like I been punished like I need to learn a lesson
But I'm not learning shit I've only got another question
Like what's it gonna take for all the death inside to lessen
Huh, I guess I'll never know
Guess that I'll be hurting more than I know I could ever show
Guess that I'll pretend like I been feeling that I'm loving life
Guess that I'll just deal with all the feelings like I'm not alive
Huh, I know what death is like
When everything is empty and the brightest light will never shine
When everything is gone, and all you got are demons in your mind
When everything is nothing and its all that you can feel inside
[Hook]
I need the answer to all the pain
Before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker, waiting in vain
Before all the pain comes back again
[Verse 2]
I been building walls so I can never feel connected
I been telling lies so I can never feel neglected
See I been all alone but I'm preffering this way
I don't wanna love, I been deterring it away
Cuz I been sick of feeling broken, barely breathin always chokin
Wait until I feel emotion, drowning in the fuckin ocean
Try to live with love and hope and lose it all within the moment
Barely breathin, barely copin, isn't that a scary notion
Huh, I don't know where to start
I don't know the reason that I feel like I been in the dark
I'm thinkin that I'll wait until the day that I can feel a spark
I'm thinkin but it's killin cuz my mind is tearing me apart
Yeah don't wish I was dead but damn I wish that it was different
I'm hating how I speak but there is no one there to listen
But that is what I chose cuz I'm the one who built the prison
I'm the one to blame for where I stand in my position
[Hook]
I need the answer to all the pain
Before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker, waiting in vain
Before all the pain comes back again
[Verse 3]
I been going numb, since before my mother ever died
But ever since she did see I've been weeping but I never cry
I'm wishing that I could, but I been cold no matter what I try
Haven't shed a tear since the final time I said goodbye
The guilt I feel is hanging all around me
So I'm takin out my anger on the people that surround me
I'm tearing into people for the things they never did
And instead of making up I only ran away and hid
Dig away my own depression, never sure I'm always guessin
All the feelings I'm repressin, always hiding always stressin
Seems they never get the message, not if I will not express it
Left my heart with this impression, when I hide and just suppress it
Huh, what is happiness?
Tried to fake a grin but once I did I ain't been happy since
I know I'm not alone and that there's others who can help
That's why I built the walls so I can suffer by myself
[Hook]
I need the answer to all the pain
Before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker, waiting in vain
Before all the pain comes back again
