[Verse 1: OnlyOne]
I guess it was all the domestic violence at home
That led to pyrotechnic attempts, that night I was cold
But a fascination was set so my love with light isn't grown
Which led next to setting fire behind the retirement home
Mom fled with me on some kidnap shit
Dad was like meh, that's wen dad dipped
Well 12 years later I've learned this rap shit
Dad heard the flow and he was like "Give him back bitch"
They ask you for tablets or wild medication
That makеs me crack a smile at child molestation
You bеst just recognize, my pessimism certain
Inject insecticide, the sexicism isn't working
Sweating exercise is best but instead I misinterpret
So instead of exercise I just sweat my inner person
My inner urges tell me to be a selfish fuck
No jealous cunt could love or hate themselves this much
[Chorus: Al-One]
This constant state of depression has been raising some questions
Weight on my essence that came up with methods and ways to suppress it
And now I spend my days all sedated and restless
To try to write a rhyme provided by the blank page and I'm left with pain in my chest Straining my brain, regaining reflected, relaying the message
I gave it my best I just accepted it
I was misdirected, disconnected balloons don't fly
When they filled with lead, so how will I ever reach the sky?
[Verse 2: IAME]
Yo this is a non-stop walk through rock bottom
Some people got problems, lots of people just talk about em
Me, I bottle em in hit the bottle and then I hit it again
And this is how you begin
One of them nights you can't remember the end of it
When you end up in your bed say thank god it's the sentiment
Yo I'm fed up with this life that I'm leading
But I can't make a change cuz I'm too busy fighting my demons
And they might just come to you, somind your business
If a dark cloud doesn't hover you, you might not get this
It's for my own protection I don't own no weapon
Thanks to this depression I'm the first name on my own hit list
And this is as low as it goes, my serotonin's playing limbo and life is the pole
I smoke dope, the coke, but know that that won't heighten my soul
But what the fuck you think I'm writing this for? (it's all I got)
[Chorus: Al-One]
This constant state of depression has been raising some questions
Weight on my essence that came up with methods and ways to suppress it
And now I spend my days all sedated and restless
I tried to write a rhyme provided by the blank page and I'm left with pain in my chest Straining my brain, regaining reflected, relaying the message
I gave it my best I just accepted it
I was misdirected, disconnected balloons don't fly
When they filled with lead, so how will I ever reach the sky?
[Verse 3: Mo-B]
I'm posted like Josephine Joseph
Running Mary Jane, watching gospel programs
I'm constantly loaded, molded to my couch
Because of y'all bullshit I hardly leave the house
I gotta get up ,get out and get something
But I'm a rap, get drunk and get blunted
Now that's substance, why try just to fail
You're better off marching gay parades through the bible belt
I stay fly as hell for luring kangos
Matching lead balloons tied around my ankles
Break your bankroll, ain't no circus act
Then strangle these mammals full of helium rap
Mo-B don't play that, get up to get down
Might as well count the rain drops flooding Stumptown
I'm no fun to be around, yes indeed
Got places to be, but my tank's on E.D
[Chorus: Al-One]
This constant state of depression has been raising some questions
Weight on my essence that came up with methods and ways to suppress it
And now I spend my days all sedated and restless
To try to write a rhyme provided by the blank page and I'm left with pain in my chest Straining my brain, regaining reflected, relaying the message
I gave it my best I just accepted it
I was misdirected, disconnected balloons don't fly
When they filled with lead, so how will I ever reach the sky?
