(Good evening...
So, I see not much has gotten better
Since the last time we've chatted
By the sounds of it, things may've gotten
Worse?
I see a few loved ones have passed away
Recently...
Your ex, being one of them you may've
Mentioned?
Suicide. Is that correct?
Alright, well how about you catch me up on
Anything else that's been going on
The girl you're letting stay at your house?
If you still see your life as worthless?
How is life going right now?)
Every morning is the fucking same
If life's a game this shit's on replay
Like, "Ian, grab you bookbag
It's time for hell
Try not to get laughed at
You do that so well
I got your test from math back
Your grade just fell
The school called and emailed
You missed the bell
Now you have detention
And you better go attend it."
Sorry about that doc I felt that needed to be
Meantioned
And that girl staying at my house
She made my life a living hell
I thought we had a connection, but then she
Fucking wrecked it
All she did was lie and use me
It was mentally abusing
Kicked her out and brought her back in
I always fucking forgive
Once I woke-up in the middle of the night and
Excuse my language
But this bitch was on my dick...
Like, is that considered rape?
It wasn't on tape, so who would believe me?
I don't wanna tell my mom
I didn't wanna be blamed
But she wouldn't say it's my fault
I know it's just wrong
Now I'm scared to close my eyes
Even though weeks have gone by
I don't really remember that night
Not very vividly
Maybe I told her it was alright
But I was fucking half asleep...
Haha, no pun intended
You know I have a hard time being serious
So I try and make jokes out of something
Serious
That's just how I cope
By the way I wrote a note
It was very apologetic
I think I just wanna end it
(Alright. I hear what your saying
I have just the thing for it
I need you to follow these directions
8 pills a day
4 in the morning
4 before you lay
Down for the night
In bed for the night
This should help you stop wishing you were
Dead at night
And make you forget that blade that dripped red
That night
You know...
You know what?
Take these two extra pills while your at it
We call these Abilify
You may not notice changes right away
Others may notice it before you
I need a parent to sign...
Your insurance should cover this...)
Doc, I'm losing grip of reality
Hahaha, like, I'm really worried about my mentality
This morning, did I wake up
Or all night, did I stay up?
Okay, okay, wait-up...
I need to say something
My day is dark
Although the sun came up
I'm drowning
Don't tell Noah wait up
I feel like I'm all alone
These thoughts they stay consume me
I put a bet on my mind...
And I'm losing
Haha ya get it doc?
You get it?
I'm losing my mind and
I'm using my time and
I'm bruising my thighs and
Abusing my life and
I'm proving they're right and
Confusing my eyes
But I swear I'm seeing shit
When it's only me and shit
I'm sick of this frequent shit
I mean all this treatment shit
And this fake achievement shit
This mutual agreement shit
And this inconvenient shit
And dreaming of demon shit
Yeah, I have my reasons, bitch
For this life I am unfit
And I didn't ask for it
I wish this was all a skit
It's the life I have to live
Dunno if I can make it
I no longer wanna fake it
My life's a loosely knit
Sweater, whatever the weather
My heart cold
Like way below temperature
I need to pull it together
But my thoughts lay heavy...
A ton of feathers
A ton of bricks...
Doc, it's all the same shit...
(You know...
I feel like we should send you to the hospital
Have you ever heard of Kingswood?
They'll take good care of you there
Keep you safe from, well... Yourself
They'll keep you from hurting others, too
I know they're just thoughts
But we don't want them to turn into actions
How about we get you there
And we see what happens
This is a great opportunity to get better
I wouldn't pass it
It will help you a lot
I know you feel trapped, lan)
Wait, what?
What-What's going on?
(Uh, Kingswood)
What the fuck is a Kingswood?
(Um, it's, it's where, you need to...)
Man I'll be fine, doc, I always have been, man
(No, no. No, Ian, you need to... you should get help)
It just felt different that time
(It's, it's not...)
I'm, I'm probably just over thinking it
(You're not over thinking it
Ian just, just, just trust me)
Like, for real, real, really, really, I'm, I'm feeling fine
I don't
(Ian don't argue with me)
What do you mean take me to a hospital?
(Um, it's the hospital)
I don't need to go to a hospital
I'm fine, man
(no, listen, you do need to go, Ian, I'm sorry)
Like, honestly, I'm, I'm, I'm great
(Come on in here guys)
I was over thinking it...
Who are these guys walking in?
(These, these are the, these are the)
Wait, who the, who the fuck are you, man?
(Ian)
Bro, get the fuck off me, man!
(Ian, you need help. Ian, don't resist)
Yo, doc! Doc, what's going on, bro?
(Ian, Ian, I'm trying to tell you, Ian)
Why are, why are they, why
(That's)
Who are these guys walking in?
(They are)
Why are they, what's that?
(These guys are just here to help you out)
Is that a stretcher?
(Ian, that's not gonna help)
Why the fuck you got me on a stretcher, man?
(It's so you stay still)
Why you bringing a stretcher in here, dude?
(It's for you to relax)
I said I'm fine, bro
(Ian, I need you to relax)
I said, let me get
(I believe you)
I can get better on myself, man
(Just, just relax, they gotta take care of you)
Shit, I knew it was too good to be true, man!
God!
