[VERSE 1]
I been tryna get my mind to this point where I feel okay
Any change on the way that I show today
Thoughts of my self-hatred I keep at bay
And what you say won’t puncture my delicate stay
I digress what i often think is my best
Form of reflection ain't in my face
Instead it’s the motherfucking helpless cage
That I trapped every feeling that I got but rage
Every right that I got still feel too wrong
And every wrong that I got still fueled a song
What the fuck do I chase when I ain’t too strong
See my dreams got a pace but it take too long
Tryna get my foot in through this world of hate
And with a 2nd job now there’s a table to wait
How do I sеparate love from a hopelеss place
And find peace in the choices I can’t embrace
This right here is my form at the purest
My heart it keep endurance, late start to my assurance
I take goals and I move em with the currents
The lessons been insurance, i can't ever have been abundance
I seen souls that’ll take and love who knows
At the chance that they find themselves in those clothes
Tryna rip all this off but that shit don’t fold
And every source that I’m citing’s what my momma told
[Chorus]
I should pray to him
I should pray to him right?
I should pray to him
I should pray to him right?
I should pray to him
I should pray to him right?
I should pray to him
You should said I should pray to him, okay
[VERSE 2]
Time past since the last time we spoke
I got deep trauma wit you provoked
I was raised in a section of hope
That mistook your guidance for the only fucking rope
I been spiteful, what’s rightful to feel?
When the lengths of my life feel destined to fail?
Is that, my fault or yours
What are you testing me for?
Can you open doors that’ll make me understand?
Can you tell me why the fuck I never got a hand?
When I pray, just silence, not even reprimands
In exchange for pain? What I get? Holy lands?
That’s what I’m fighting for, in this little time that I get to breathe as I come close
To my death, and bite through the utmost
Worst thoughts that tell me to load clips
Swerve wheels and hit poles to jump ship
I came so close to the edge of the cliff
And still couldn’t feel things you sent to lift
Bloody hands of my past outlook, ripped
And selfishly it fuels my pride to drift
Always felt way too alone but I’m back to the phone
Voicemail at a tone of my
Disgust for things that you sent me
Discuss with me please I’m empty
[Chorus]
I should pray to him
I should pray to him right?
I should pray to him
I should pray to him right?
I should pray to him
I should pray to him right?
I should pray to him
You should said I should pray to him, okay
[VERSE 3]
I got blood on my shoulder from the devil you planted
Rancid, that ransom you never gon pay that
Laid back posture while I suffer you’d rather
Watch my tears slide on a face created
Blatant with sins, the base of my whims
No patience for hymns, need a price a payment
Face it, been swimming in a tank full of greed, feel the culprit is you
On my knees for the help overdue
They ain’t even praying nowadays, that’s a image
Fear based motives know it’s always got a limit
I been looking in the mirror like damn you the same
What’s the weight of words if my hearts not in it?
Fumble to the floor where my pieces at
I got remorse with God, now my demons back
They ain’t senile, they rewired, on full attack
They sense fear and my blood spilled, smell attracts shit
Now it’s stains in eyes, view fucked by demise
Once a man recognize, what it takes for the right
To look god in the eyes, throw sins to the fire
Innocence expired, is the
Devil hired by you? In a sense he was mild
But as time pass by, flipped wild lost child
Momma said pray more, he gon be there
Momma said pray more, tell me do you hear?
