[Verse 1: Jaylikethealphabet]
I grew up in a family of six: three boys, one girl
With hand-me-downs twice-recycled, you could say feeling special was far from norm'
Trying to fit in to feel loved, or whatever you wanna call it, was my form
You know how if your parents, if in a hypothetical situation, would ever tell you who their favorite child was?
Well I didn't need a hypothetical situation to know that it wasn't me
You see a real-life black sheep, but speak up is something that wasn't free
Instead, uh huh, I'd go to school
I'd try to be someone cool and I, I hid my insecurities with a joke and a friend about how I didn't follow rules
And little did I know was these friends in quotations would treat me worse than the family that I thought I didn't have
Using mе as a punching bag, and me
I just let it happen bеcause I just wanted to belong
I wanted to be a part of something where I didn't have to hide anymore
Where I could be more and be accepted for who I was
I wouldn't have to fit in a mold because I don't already
I've been attacked, aimed at, and mocked for who I am
And they say love is a choice?
Well, why ain't nobody choose me?
Why I feel like I'm a fool, G?
Why should I have hope about someone who can love me?
I'm lookin' around and seeing all these filters and goals
Compared to my life, and, there's just holes
You want to talk about depression?
This black could that follows me around
Taking every piece or sound of hope in this town
Until I drown, because I can't make it out
And why would I even want to be here?
Why should I stay here?
[Bridge: Isaac Quazzo]
I know I'm loved but I don't feel loved so you know it gets hard to believe it
Why am I here, say "I don't feel fear"
Now, I'm thinking I'm starting to mean it
Why am I scared? Why does no one care?
Can you see my tears and my weakness?
Please God, hope you can hear me
Now here's my prayer, I'm here now, hear my thesis
[Verse 2: Isaac Quazzo]
Stop looking at Hollywood actors and Hollywood cameras like they set the standard of happiness
They try to market to masses
You like how it looks, and you like how they package it
Maybe if I had a life like the people on Instagram, I wouldn't feel like an accident
You were created, and then when He made you, He loved you
So let me just tell you what happened, 'cause
You didn't feel love from the family that you thought you didn't have
You would give your love to other people who would take it from you and would never give it back
You were trying to find your value in a couple things that made you happy but they didn't last
When you're looking back, how you gonna step forward when you're always living in the past?
Look, I know that you're scared
Commitment is your biggest fear
You think that nobody will care if you never came back and then you disappeared
You've tried everything that you've dared
But drugs and alcohol could never take away the pain
It would always come back with a friend
Now, stop watching movies and shows trying to take your mind off of the problem that's rooted within
You're letting the demons win, you're letting the demons in
When they say that nobody will love you and you just believe I'm [?]
Like, demons we meet again
But Satan is prince of the lies
Brother, open your eyes
'Cause God has a plan for your life
Look, God has a plan for your life
Don't look at the surface
Don't look at the surface
You may not see it right now, but you're made with a purpose
God sees that you're hurtin', and he sees that you're burdened
He knows that you don't come to church 'cause you're scared of His verdict
That He'll think that you're worthless
'Cause you need to be perfect
But let me tell you right now 'cause you need to be certain that
God loves you
The value that you put on yourself doesn't matter
Don't be scammed by a lie
God made you with a purpose in mind
He loved you so much that He died
He died for the sin that you think is too big for God to love you
Well, He took that sin and crushed it
When God looks at you, He sees a child that He loves
So get on your feet
And step out of defeat
'Cause with God we are bound to be free
With God we are bound to be free
