[Verse 1]
I’m not perfect
None of us are, that I know
But I’m tired of the voices telling me so
Over these things I can’t control
I’m just as weird as you think I am
This nose is big and I got messed up hands
My eyes are far and I’m standing short
I don’t care about my physicality anymore
Will I meet her? Not right now
I just wanna find out what my life’s about
And if she comes? Good, I hope she likes me
I love myself at the moment and that’s all I need and
I didn’t do this for fame, or for family and friends so that they can celebrate
I did this for me, so when I look in the mirror
There’s a good person there and I’ll be amazed
[Chorus]
Goodbye, goodbye
I hope y’all had a real fantastic time
Goodbye, goodbye
I hope y’all liked this chapter of my life
[Verse 2]
No more fear in me, I mean that seriously
In terms of goats, the ledge ends/legends here with me
Just kidding, I’m not killing ‘till he does it for me
Even if today sucks, there’s another morning
I won’t see most of y’all after I leave
So what the heck does popularity matter to me?
As long as my grades are in tip-top shape
I can goof around and joke until I graduate
And nobody’s ugly, I’m speaking truth
And there’s always somebody who wishes they were you
The only thing we’re owed is love and happiness
And you can’t cure depression, but you deserve the best
So, tell somebody close if you’re feeling sad today
Slit your throat? Tie a rope? Please don’t, okay?
‘Cause you’re gonna go far, if you accept who you are
So when you’re at your deathbed, you can happily say
[Chorus]
Goodbye, goodbye
I hope y’all had a real fantastic time
Goodbye, goodbye
I hope y’all liked this chapter of my life
I said hi, now it's time for goodbye
[Refrain]
I don’t know where I’ll go from here
But I know that I’m ready, but I know that I’m ready
I don’t know where I’ll go from here
But I know that I’m ready, but I know that I’m ready
[Interlude]
Not done yet
[Verse 3]
I won’t have to like what y’all like
As long as I’m creative, baby, I’ll be alright
I don’t gotta be drunk and hold up the mic
I don’t gotta hit the blunt and write this tight
Trying that stuff would be nice
But the media shouldn’t paint my ideal life
My summer paled compared to my other friends
But I’m here for another year, another ‘gain
Human interaction sound foreign to me
Not boring to me, but adoring to see
Maybe a girlfriend isn’t what I need
But this world and thoughts don’t agree with me
The family getting distant, I heard, I knew
And we looking at our phones with that bird-eye view
The time to hang now with the brother is fiction
And the kitchen looking emptier every minute
We’re all growing up, showing up and out
And I’m tryna find the happiness I had as a child
It’s getting harder to smile, with colleges to try out
And in the meanwhile, I’m trying not to pout
And the future is coming, and I’m still running
Back to those times when I wasn’t cutting
But I gotta love me and me the best
And that’s the story of CTCS
[Outro: JASCR, D]
[D]
Why don’t you look at you? Being all happy
[JASCR]
Oh, yeah. Uh…I-I love myself. (chuckles) Finally
[D]
Oh? Do you really now?
[JASCR]
Yeah, I do. I mean…I-I think I do, anyway
[D]
Hmm. I sense trepidation in that voice. Are you sure? Are you really content with yourself?
[JASCR]
No no, I am! And I’m very content, it’s…it’s just that
[D]
Oh? What is it? Is it that you’re still just 60% to some folks no matter what you do? You’ll never have somebody to reinforce that love physically and verbally when you inevitably revert back to me?
[JASCR]
Uhhh...well, uh
[D]
You’re…stammering over there buddy. What…what is it?
[JASCR]
Mmmm...mmmm
[D]
You…you don’t even need to say it. You miss me. I know you do. You miss how I leave scars on you. You miss my words of belittlement
[JASCR]
Yeah, I do
[D]
I know I’m a big reason as to why you’re not in front of her, right? Because you love me too much
[JASCR]
Yeah…I do love you
[D]
Awww. Come here, buddy. There, there. You’re gonna crash and burn. Don’t worry. Just remember something for me, you ugly, sad, pathetic excuse of a life?
[JASCR]
Mm-hm? What is it?
[D]
You’re not perfect
