All emotions on the side, Got no time for lies
All these things are bottled deep inside my troubled mind
Try to hide, But I can't escape it even if I tried
Got so many thoughts you'd think I'm Pimpin' bitches on the side
Honestly a lot of this is coming from a broken man
Out here doing what I can, Got 2 kids to put to bed
See you an angel with these broken Wings
And I'm a demon seeing Satan every time I blink
Tears & RIPs, Guess I wear them on my fucking sleeve
Lost so many people I ain't let nobody close to me
Haven't made a new connection probably in 100 weeks
I'm at the grave and I grieve
I'm heaving overthinking, Wish I had you by my side again
My brother and my best friend, One day I'll see you again
I'll write a letter send it off to heaven...
I wish I had more time with you is what I am regretting
Hook:
And you can see the pain, I think of you & i got tears running down my face
Wish I could see you in a different place, I'd have to die to be with you again another day
Can you take me away, The day you left man nothing's ever been the same
Can you take me away, I need a paradise holiday
Verse2:
I hit a million brotha, Hope u proud of me brotha
If I make it I'ma take care of your family and others
Yeah
See this last girl fucked me up, And since u left this earth my brother I been in a rutt
Diamond in the ruff is what u told me that I was
So I'ma make a future for us that's what this dedication does
Powers from above, It's like u rose inside my very soul
Told me you'd be with me til I'm old
I
Guess you weren't lying, My feelings multiplying
Every time I see the sky, In my head I hear Matthias
So thank you for your guidance, And thank you for your patience
Without you I would be nothing heaven knows I'm not the greatest
You kept me concentrated, Thru trials and tribulations
It's So sad to see your grave & every time I'm there I'm faded
My son had the best godfather and he'll know it
Time and time again u saved my life man u heroic
For real
(Demonic)
Pain kills, Pain killers poppin' just to get numb
Fuck this, God's a killer Killing everyone I love
Don't ask me why my faiths gone
Why is it that everything I love have gotta end wrong
Tick tick boom Issa time bomb
Been 11 months n I can finally say hi mom
My bond, Has been broken from day 1
Been 11 months and I can finally say hi son
Hook:
And you can see the pain, I think of you & I got tears running down my face
Wish I could see you in a different place, I'd have to die to be with you again another day
Can u take me away, The day u left man nothing's ever been the same Can u take me away, I need a paradise holiday
For real
Verse2:
You take em all away
Will I go to hell or see heavens gates
I gotta passion for this music, I use haters as my fuel
& use my past as an excuse
& honestly I'm being real with you, Real with everybody
I got problems and this rapping shit is way more than a hobby
I remember being 16, sleeping in the lobby, Most of y'all are fucking lucky still living with you mommy's
I ain't never had it easy huh, Never had a break, But I'm still out here trying to make it While avoiding all mistakes
I know I disappoint a lot of y'all, But one day I'll be great
See we were 6 when we made this dream, I never let it get away
Man this some real shit, I check my inbox Interscope is begging for my hits
Rostrum on the gram, They out checking every single drip
While Sony a&rs are trying to sign me on some petty shit
100 thousand in a month, Almost certified gold
Remember being 13, 1000 views was my goal
U taught me not to do it, U taught me how to be myself and how to make my movements
U told me industries will try to make a snake maneuver
Unless a couple Milly in it I ain't gonna do it
Said I ain't gon do it, Since January 13th I'm a different human
