[Intro: Tai, Tai's mother, & the hosts]
I’m still that kid, I’m still that kid
I haven’t seen him in 10 years!
I told her that I’m still that kid, I’m still that kid
I’m just b-I’m tired, I’m depressed, I’m tired
We know
Ok
I’m tired, I’m just tired, I’m hurt
That’s some twisted logic
Nah man, like
You’re telling us that you’re---
I’m just saying, I’m just saying it’s mental things that can mess with-
Ok, but Tai, you’re-
It’s mental things that bothers me in the physical world
You’re telling us that you’re depressed?
I don’t have motivation, how can I have motivation? Yes! How can I have m-motivation when I-everything’s handed to me?
Right, so you’re telling us that you’re depressed?
Yeah, I’m depressed, I’m always depressed
I’m in a dark spot, I know I’m in a dark spot
Were you in a dark spot---
And I’ve been there for a long time
But----
[Verse: Jonny Farias & Simon Sinek]
I got way too much to take to the tomb
Always be whining, it ain’t nothing new
Been getting used to feeling confused
I've been addicted to bringers of gloom (twelve steps)
Maybe these feelings are just seasonal
The weather's good, how are you?
This so personal, mad emotional
Tell 'em be strong, but what about you?
Some nights I’m thinking “I could've been Junior”
Other nights stressin’ ‘bout unreleased music
Seems like every day I'm making excuses
Honestly, it make me feel like a fool
Pushing myself to the limit but feel like I’m always on ice like I’m Sumire
Put them bars down, sport the flow too
But I worry ‘bout who gon’ play it?
Rant at the man in the mirror, we feudin'
Thinking ‘bout how I’m gon’ say it, just do it
Waiter, can I get a table for two?
You can’t have your cake and eat it too, Jonny
Foundation's feeling too rocky
Eyes been flooding like a tsunami
Ain’t just thinking ‘bout the punani
Been hung up on you too long
Jonny boy, you should move on
Jonny boy, you should move on
I don’t really know why you do what you do, Lord
Sidebar, I told my boy “keep your head up”
He told me back, “you too”
On the edge, going cuckoo
Self-care once in a blue moon
Feel like the ugliest piece in the museum
His architecture, you got used to
Then you feel like he used you
Built him up, then he tore you down
I keep thinking things through
And thinking them through, and that’s a problem
The most bitter pill to swallow, that's the truth
We know that engagement in social media and our cell phones releases a chemical called dopamine
Perk up when my phone be flashing blue
Happy ’cause my phone is flashing blue
That’s why when you get a text, feels good
And it's you, and it's you
Twists and turns kept me out of the loop
Some days, I wanna be in solitude
But some days, I wanna be next to you
Don't try and make sense of the irrational
Never faced things of this magnitude
My world’s been shaken up
Struggling coming up with good attributes
I couldn’t even identify two (bye)
Everything closeted, gotta set loose
I don't phase in and out of this mood
Chasing rainbows like a loon
Beating 'round the bush, I won't bloom
I really care about you
Do you feel the same way too?
Houston, we got some issues
Houston, I got some issues
Humid, fearful, face is changing hues
Falling from a high altitude
Finna drop this out the blue
Wish I didn’t have to be so blue
Wish I could go into the blue
Wish I could leave all of this with you
[Outro: Host 1, Host 2, Jonny Farias & Tai's mother]
Um, it’s the woe-is-me story, the “oh I’m so sorry, well feel sorry for me, because I was deprived of this, that, and the other thing”, and I was raised really well
This is all, I don’t feel any emotion toward him right now
Why?
Because it’s all a game, it’s all his MO
For him to get his way?
His MO, his manipulation of us (yep)
Selah
