[Prod. By Eagle]
[Intro]
I don't even talk on songs no more.. I just rap
I be wanting to tell y'all things but.. I only have so much time to actually tell you
Just walk with me
Let me tell you how I found Tranquility
[Verse]
I used to look into the mirror & not see a reflection
An imperfected human just lookin' to be perfection
I made countless mistakes I'm tryna be my correction
& the pain was so Great I suffered from the Depression
The hearts that I shattered & the promises I've broken
Only shows what I became so many words I haven't spoken
So many things I should've said but never got the chance to
You have all of the answers but I never got to ask you
The woman of my dreams? Eventually became my biggest nightmare
Took my heart & broke it now I'm wonderin' why I'm here
I knew that in the past with women prior to her
I hurt, eventually she left me cryin' to her
Remember the day she told me it's over she couldn't do it
& I was there just wonderin' how could I be so stupid
We never had no problems we never would even fight
Until the night her father left her & her mother I was like
Nah baby just keep it chill you gon' be alright that's forreal
She tellin' me that we over I'm thinkin' "Yo what's the deal?"
She told me.. She could no longer focus on us
I told her don't worry bout him & that's when we start to fuss
She cryin' over the phone gettin' louder startin' cuss
I said you better respect me chill out, yo what the fuck
I told you that I will care for you, always will I love you
If you takin' care of me, then I'm takin' care of us
But I guess she had different plans
Or maybe there was a different man
How long was I supposed to be with her?
I swear to God I gave her good dick but still she treated me like I'm a minute man
I don't know, what is it man?
I guess I'm good at pickin' women man
What if I start treatin' these hoes like I don't give a damn?
I guess I gotta be the same as these niggas to be considered as a different man
But I'm a nigga with a different plan
To speak the words that wasn't written, damn
I swear I got this I'ma kill it fam
No longer takin' pics of all my accomplishments I'ma switch to cam
& I'll record the look on everyone's faces soon as I make it
Cuz the look inside their eyes is just screamin' out "Man I hate it"
That's cool, cuz I ain't trippin'
There's niggas up in my mentions shittin' on me I ain't bitchin'
Cuz I favorite all the hate, to remind me where I came from
Remind me where I got my name from
They said Jesus was the savior, when I started rappin'
Niggas looked at both of us & said "They gotta be the same one"
Heh.. It's crazy at how they look at me
It's quite an honor truthfully
The way I lay my words on top of the beat, so very beautifully
The fans are treatin' me like I'm a star it's still new to me
Forever I will remain humble
I welcome you to my jungle
It's either love me or I'm screamin' out fuck you
Crazy how you'll start to hate me but I'm still gon' say I love you
& that's to the people rockin' with me right now
Danny Green in the booth, I'm shootin' the lights out
They tellin' me that I'm nice, & I be like "how?"
Because you step up to the mic & other rappers pipe down
I told 'em, the pressure that you're puttin' on me is honestly nothin' to me
Ain't nobody fuckin' wit me & they will be luckily
Able to hear my mumbling anytime when I speak
Pushin' the bar up givin' rappers their Halos they better reach
I am, the meaning of a lyricist
Cuz I take all my pain & put it into this
LeBron James of my era you are witnessin'
I got you all into my bars, you're now my prisoners
There ain't nothin' I'd rather do than this
To all my fans y'all are the proof to this
No matter what I may be goin' through because it is a stupid bitch
I'll write crack in these lines & give it to you to sniff
No longer am I depressed
No longer wakin' up every day walkin' round with regrets
I'm high, what you expect?
& when I die I pray you never forget
Me, I pray you all live healthy
I'm broke as a joke, but still be rappin' like I'm wealthy
I don't have all of the money but I have a good reason
To wake up, to see my mother happy now I'm cheesin', damn
[Outro]
I'm happy now
I'm happy where I'm at
I'm at peace. It took me a while but, after some soul searching
I ain't find myself, I created myself
I built myself from the ground up
You can't find what you haven't lost yet
Zero
