[Chorus]
Got 2 bottles of water by my side
My doubts in my left and my pen in my right
Not ready to choose, I am borrowing time
Do I slaughter the mic or do I swallow my pride?
Blue is the color of my eyes
The only thing bright in the horror of the night
There is so much to lose if I follow the light
Speaking the truth, it’s a worry of mine
[Verse 1]
Feels like I still need to prove, that my skill will suffice
I don’t know what to do, it’s a risk, can’t decide
Ever alternating mood, like the switch of the tide
Is it your dream I pursue while covering mine?
Well fuck it, all of you can suck it
Don’t which way to walk, so I’m running both
Hunting fo’ something or
Nothing, I don’t even know anymore
I’m out here spitting fire, but I’m stuck in the cold
And this boat I’ve been rowing for so long getting old
But it’s comfortable, this is the road I call home
But there’s a current that’s pulling and it’s caused by my flow
What if I go, mining for gold
Will chapters unfold or die as they’re told
I don’t know, I’d like to propose a toast
To the untold future and whatever it holds
Let me tell you what's bothering me
I ain't got much time, going for my Masters degree
But I wanna write rhymes, wanna follow my dream
But there's this downside that I'm starting to see
My field of study is called Psychology
My profession will be people talking with me
But why would they do that if they ever hear
Me rapping, talking shit, smacking up beats
How am I supposed to be professional
If the message I spread online is reckless
No way anyone will settle for
A psychologist who's known for wreaking havoc like Hannibal
It’s not acceptable, or is it?
Your opinion is the only thing that matters if I wanna make a living
Doing the one thing, but in the other it just isn’t
I could stuff it down your throat and then feed it to a cricket
[Chorus]
Got 2 bottles of water by my side
My doubts in my left and my pen in my right
Not ready to choose, I am borrowing time
Do I slaughter the mic or do I swallow my pride?
Blue is the color of my eyes
The only thing bright in the horror of the night
There is so much to lose if I follow the light
Speaking the truth, it’s a worry of mine
[Verse 2]
How do I keep my head straight?
If or when I get a fanbase
I don’t want no fame
I’ll be hiding in a bat cave
I’ve been mixing shit
Making mayonnaise
The eggs being doubts
And the lemon is me battling
With my own thoughts
The vinegar is me being lost
Cannot figure out what I want
It doesn’t even matter
Because no one pays attention
I’ve been waiting for a blessing
I’ve been hoping to blow up
Speaking to you from the past, from way back
Writing this ages before it’s ever gonna drop
Maybe you keep playing my songs on playback
But can’t count on that, have to plan for it to flop
Here I am, a lil man
With big dreams, unrealistic as they seem
I have a plan, but without you I can’t
Succeed, I need streams to feed me
So I keep killing, on this album, bring the realest
Of me, my thoughts and my vision
I see a big boss, a small building
Living humble with my wife and 2 children
Doing what I love
Making music, no worries, just fun
Pursuing my passion, I hope the future is a blessing
But right now, can only wish, ‘till it’s all said and done
[Chorus]
Got 2 bottles of water by my side
My doubts in my left and my pen in my right
Not ready to choose, I am borrowing time
Do I slaughter the mic or do I swallow my pride?
Blue is the color of my eyes
The only thing bright in the horror of the night
There is so much to lose if I follow the light
Speaking the truth, it’s a worry of mine
