Feel like one gigantic step was just taken backwards
There are a couple people out there who keep sayin that they really, really feel me but keep passing me up. To y'all, fuck you
I am officially done trying to impress you because I am clearly incapable of producing something of your standards
I don't even really fuck with your subgenre heavy, all I wanted was to work with you
But that's perfectly cool, keep working with twit twats
All this inward disappointment, self-hatred, anger and frustration has only made me more determined to become better and better
And if someday I eventually do become a super proficient beatmaker, don't ever fuckin knock on my door. My door is closed to liars
How about instead of pandering and leading me on, you actually help me? That would be heavily welcomed
So many twats in the RG producer game.
I ain't knockin' their production, but they are mostly a bunch of twats
Caia is cool doe. Shoutsout to @fogandoxycontin
If you post every single fucking beat you do in the forum one at a time it makes you an asshole
You are not that important Massology. Do a tape with Psyonik and shut the fuck up
You know at least Massology consistently makes good beats. Can't say the same for Stephen at all
Soooooooooooooooooooooo hit or miss
And let's not even bring in his absolutely garbage personality. Not even the artists he's collabing with like him, they're just using him
Never have I ever seen anybody on the internet try as hard as Niday. It's like a 14 year old shouting AM I COOL YET over and over and over
But hey, 2 months of trying and I still can't achieve what they have. So good on them
I realize I'm not the greatest. Personally, I think Lovesongs is underdeveloped and sloppy along with the rest of my first two tapes
I have only been producing for 4 months and it would be pompous of me to declare myself an apt beatmaker this far into my "career"
But I will be damned if I spend all my time trying to get better and better at jazz rap to be ignored. Fucking sick of it
Tell me I suck and then illicitly buy some stuff from Massology
That way I will at least know I'm not heading in the right direction
And hey, while I'm letting things off my chest...
MC Prosee can't write for shit (even after putting a billion poems up on RG) and the drums he uses are garbage. Why does RG fuck with him?
He mumbles so bad you'd think his ass was Donny Bravo
Don't ever come up to me and ask me for anything. I love my beats too much to let you two deface them beyond recognition
RG doesn't call out bullshit. They're soft. Their expectations are lowered. I call it like I see it. Not gonna make me popular I know
But somebody has to tell these Rock Band mic rappers that, yes, staying on beat and remaining intelligible are important aspects of rap
The problem I have is that I set out to make music for other people. I rarely ever sit down and make music for myself
These people, for the last three or so months, have basically been UF and "the big 3"
If you don't know who "the big 3" is, how have you made it this far into my rant?
Oh yeah, also Caia. Shoutsout to @fogandoxycontin
Most everything I have made has been an attempt to garner the admiration and respect of these five people
Which is ridiculous, I realize. But I need constant self-affirmation in order to assure myself that what I'm making isn't complete dogshit
So instead of doing what I've wanted (Kicking Icicles), I have spent (and, sadly, probably still will spend) my time doing jazzy beats
All in a vain effort to appease somebody I look up to. But no more
Am not gonna sit around and get "mhm cools" from y'all and then watch y'all circlejerk and cumswap with a bunch of fucking twit twats
SF, Pio, JC and UF, stay cool. Fuckin' done
Oh and Nappy. Nappy you stay cool too.
