Verse 1:
Hey young child, keep your head up straight
So many chances left for you to shine
It’s times that you would fall but cannot get up
Know that giving up is not the way to live a life
You are the catalyst to your own story, the only thing that stops you from that dream will be yourself
Your mother is a goddess and she taught ya
How to be human, how to bless and take kindness
She said “change is uncomfortable and lonely,”
Like venturing a road and never knowing where you headed
Or if you’ll ever reach your destination
Succumbing to the heat, and running dry of motivation..
Chorus:
I looked at the horizon and realized that I am nothing, and something changed about me in that moment
I ran away last evening
I brought my spine, my keys
I walked the edge in an attempt to find a purpose
The edge responded, told me “You ain’t meant to find it”
You ain’t meant to find it
Verse 2:
Demise is blending in with everybody
Your father taught you lead em, even if you left with nothing
This cold world ruthless and they’ll beat you
Mock you midst the struggle while you’re picking up the crumbs of what we thought coulda been
Scrapin nickels by the minute
He said these dead end shifts not really what he’s made for in the end, so he’s mad at the world, and spreading hatred
I find it fascinating how badly a year could treat ya, the contrast in our grief and how we feel it
Told me all that keep him going is the shades of colour that get thrown in
Different faces show up, they leave a mark, then they cut
Youll see they mostly fade away at times they shouldn’t
They rare but they enough for him, they potent
If passion dictates happiness, it guides it, then I worry
I worry that he will not ever find it
It’s a black and white life in his eyes, grey shades blend together, holding on to specs of colour
Its a black and white life in his eyes, ask if he deserve the karma, watching decades blend to nothing
It’s a black and white lie in our eyes, and we solemn miss the colour, so we dreading where we headed
And even though I hold his teachings with me dearly
He’s held me back, wish I could treat em like they gospel
I ran away, hope that you’ll someday find my keys…
Reality, I’ll never find out the whole story
But hindsight curses wisdom, leaving much to be desired
I wish you coulda been a leader to us
Our story more disturbing than I ever thought it would be
I wish that I could lead by your example
Can’t look at you the same for what he done, your choices were more selfish than I ever could imagine
Verse 3:
My eyes crusted over from the slumber, force myself up, guilt of habits in the morning
Neglect my sanity and health the last couple months, and so I guess I’ll just deal wit me in the morning
I looked at the horizon and realized that I am nothing, and something changed about me in that moment
I told her that I’d stop the year I started
I only kept the promise, how would my life turn out different?
I told her that I’d change my ways by August, i take another toke, next thing I know it’s almost Christmas
Its a black and white life in our eyes, and we solemn miss the colour so we dreading where we headed
The ones that you can truly call your family, are personal treasures so hold em close as they allow you
As I flip through momento books, motions reveal themselves
Foggy dream, it get more blurry, eyes swell, so I break the drought
My balance will loosen, and spatial grip begin to falter, I’m walking on the edge of the planet
Know that we careening for meaning, what was I made for?
I’m walking on the edge of the planet
Verse 4:
Im sorry mama, if I ever disappointed
I never knew the value of a promise
My words should hold weight, they should never be meaningless
Especially when I say those words to you
It’s tearing me apart that I can’t stop when you want me to
Especially when I say those words to you
It’s shame when I inhale, but I can’t seem to put it down
Kill me inside every time i lie to you
I’m on a self destructive path, and I repeat the same decisions
I’m walking on the edge of the planet
While hoping things change without action
Succumbing to my wonder, curiosity’s a circle
Chorus:
I say change is uncomfortable and lonely, the only chance you got is looking fear straight in the eyes
So hey young child, keep your head up high, so many chances left for you to shine
I ran away last night
Brought my potential, my pride
I walked the edge in an attempt to find a purpose
The edge responded, told me you ain’t meant to find it
And so I’ll keep trying
All we can do is keep trying
I’m sorry mama..
