[Verse 1]
I’m just so fucking depressed I just can’t make sense of this mess
I feel so stressed and stupid like I’m probably less than useless
I thought as soon as uni was suited and booted that I’d be the next George Lucas
Or this mixtape would be the blueprint for my music to take off soonish
No longer a student at uni, I dropped out, schooling wasn’t conducive
With my route in life I feel like I might be losing the fight I can’t do this I might
Be doomed to a life of seclusion... constantly wounded, probably my doing
Polluted my noodle, abused it with cruelty, now I’m confused and don’t know what I’m doing
Every human would look right through me, I’m translucent, think I’m medusa
They don’t ever look me in the pupil, is it so much to feel included
A recluse that’s useful don’t be stupid, tryna elude this nuisance
Make a movement hop on a broomstick get uprooted then pursue this music
[Hook]
I’m haunted, my every thought is daunting
This morning, I’m yawning, it’s morbid cause last night was torture
I can’t sleep through the night, I just wanna switch off
I’m pissed off all I fucking have is hip hop
How many times do I have to fucking yell
How many cry's 'fore I get some fucking help
X2
[Verse 2]
Depression is living in a body that fights to survive with a mind that tries to die
I can’t find the light I’m trying to grind to keep on rising but I can’t keep climbing
It’s hard to carry, all o' this weight, when.. you.. wake.. up.. every..day
And you’re more scared of life than of passing away, how’s this a nightmare when I’m wide awake
I’ll never get a break, from my mind, only time, is escaping this life
Have I arrived at suicide, as my answer for leaving behind
This plight of mine, why is this kind, of question, seeing the light of day
I hate my brain, I’ve made mistakes, is this next on the list I might make
Why’s this even a God damn question, you don’t give a shit about my depression
“Are you okay?” “Yeah I’m fine” you ask and I’ll lie, you can’t advise
Or you just, don’t even care, I’ll just hide behind a smile
Continue the fight, maybe it might, turn out fine, I guess we’ll ask time
[Hook]
I’m haunted, my every thought is daunting
This morning, I’m yawning, it’s morbid cause last night was torture
I can’t sleep through the night, I just wanna switch off
I’m pissed off all I fucking have is hip hop
How many times do I have to fucking yell
How many cry's 'fore I get some fucking help
X2
[Verse 3]
I need people caring now, not when I'm fucking in the ground
I’d kill for my family but I’d die for my friends, my life’s a calamity I can see the end
I keep on destroying my God damn head, this fire is burning without a sense
Of direction, I’ll end up like Vader, blinded by anger, I’ll be left as a stranger
I was supposed to bring some balance to my head, and not, leave it in darkness, it’s hard it's
More eruptive than the battle of mustafar, this fire is
Consuming me, I’m doomed to be the very thing I swore to destroy
When I was a boy, you have a choice, now hear my voice, please
I feel so insane, talking to my brain, I’m not myself anymore, I’m deranged
I need some help, I can’t do this myself, now I’m feeling indifferent to the world
I gotta be living in a different world, the day’s go by on Dagobah
While I’m stuck here frozen, alone on Hoth, so I think I’ll say goodbye, but
I don’t wanna leave here for all the wrong reasons, these demons are dreaming and scheming and eating
And feasting, I’m bleeding, I’m screaming and shrieking while sleeping, I’m weeping, I’m pleading…
Please just kill me I can’t take the torture I just wanna leave I have too many disorders
I’m under the water I’m no longer breathing even above, no-one can hear me
[Hook]
I’m haunted, my every thought is daunting
This morning, I’m yawning, it’s morbid cause last night was torture
I can’t sleep through the night, I just wanna switch off
I’m pissed off all I fucking have is hip hop
How many times do I have to fucking yell
How many cry's 'fore I get some fucking help
X2
[Outro]
Lately I've been hard to reach, I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you
