They say my family’s falling apart
While I’m tryna’ build
I’m tryna’ follow my excitement and navigating the guilt
And jealousy has beat compersion a battle of the wills
I know you tried to share the wine with me before it spilled
You took my holy body in your mouth and broke the bread
I took you wholey in my body and created kids
I never thought I’d see the day that we would split
Now it’s upon us, dreams laid out in coffins, grief for what we wanted, talks become the longest, time stretches to find us, we cannot rewind us, life becomes a movie, doubt tries to consume me, fear sets fire to me, nostalgia woos me
I don’t want to lose you, you don’t want to leave me
I think love is boundless you find love in boundaries
Ours are rearranging, damn I hate this pain thing
None of this is simple, king
I know you’re something that I just can’t keep, I know you’re something that I just can’t keep, I know you’re something that I just can’t keep, I know you’re something that I just can’t keep
And when our babies came and we were celibate for weeks
We would celebrate the break and gift each other sleep
And talk about the days that they would play together, stay together, always have each other make our way together, pray together strong or weak
But honesty is part of me like heart and bones and teeth
And when I saw a part of me reflected in another, you know I had to tell you ‘cause I couldn’t keep it under wraps and covers
Had to wonder, asked some questions many blunts and many blunders could’ve done it better
I’m sure, less hurt
So I sit and write again instead of trying to speak, paper to pen feels safer to me
I tried to keep my love in writing but it leaked and now I’m getting used to the space between you and me
Expectations no longer what I thought they'd be
I feel like you landed hard and jumped off of me
A platform for what you needed to be
But you don't see it like I see it, you say you don't see like I see
You say you always knew I’d find a rapper and leave
You claim not be psychic but I swear you're more psychic than me
You claim to be my partner but you’re feelin’ more sidekick to me
You claim to be beside me but monogamy just isn’t for me
You tried to be behind it but you say that I'm killing your dreams
I understand why you’re choosing to leave
I know you’re something that I just can’t keep, I know you’re something that I just can’t keep, I know you’re something that I just can’t keep, I know you’re something that I just can’t keep
And now I’ve got this song inside me praising who I hope to be
And now I’ve got a king beside me who really believes that my heart is good enough to guide me, so I sing him to sleep
And write poetry with him lying under a tree, and talk about things I thought were bound to be in notebooks, I wrote hooks about the way his tongue took me to a place of reprieve
And when he told me that he loved me I could finally breathe and see the parts of me released that were bound to be free under the touch of a man’s hands who could finally see a woman in the flesh for who she really could be beyond bounds and boundaries
So we commit to new things and do things differently and redefine community, hip hop and loyalty
I know it’s all outside the box but it’s bound to be
I really found myself in modeling authenticity and honoring the inner-me so here it is all laid out, I'm on stage now and I'm saying farewell to the parts of me that I just can't keep
I know you’re something that I just can’t keep, I know you’re something that I just can’t keep, I know you’re something that I just can’t keep, I know you’re something that I just can’t keep
