I made a mistake, I fell on my face
This whole damn year has just gone to waste
I just took a taste, thought It'd be okay
Suddenly I am trapped back in that place
Waking up sick
Waking up pissed
How the fuck did I get back on that shit?
I said I was done, I told the world
How will I tell this to my little girl?
I told her that daddy ain't leaving
He beat all of his demons
He buried them deep but I guess they're still breathing
They're killing me slowly, they keep so lonely
They make me think everything I writе is phony
So I run to drugs, looking for love
Hoping that I can go off with the buzz
But I get nonе, just have to get numb
I'm chasing the light that is over and done
Sometimes I forget I'm as tough as they come
I stared on the barrel of a loaded gun
And I came back to life after they pulled the plug
Yeah they wrote me off but my story ain't done
I've been at the bottom as deep as it gets
Like selling my shoes for a couple hits
Now I take a shot and I do not miss
And I ain't talking about needles and rigs
This life is a battle no matter your color
Addiction don't care if you're one or the other
A mother, a father, a sister, a brother
If life is a bitch I think death is a lover
Why are we born with this fucking disease?
Like we don't deserve to be happy and free
If it's all in the head and there's nothing to see
Why are so many relating to me?
If it's all in the head and there's nothing to see
Why are they feeling the same thing as me?
We all want a change, we kill to be free
But how can you kill something that doesn't breathe?
Yeah, how do you kill something that doesn't breathe?
How can you fight something that you can't see?
Addiction, depression, and anxiety
There's a gun in my head and it's loaded by me
I'm so tired of fighting, all I want is peace
I deserve to be happy, one day I'll be free
I'll never give up on something I believe
I'll never give up on something I believe
Even if they do not believe in me
I don't need validation or anyone's praises
I'm not asking anyone, I'm just gonna take it
I used to sell acid and ketamine, cocaine, methamphetamines
I was consumed by negative energy
But I moved on to having some better dreams
I see a long road that's ahead of me
The journey is part of your destiny
It is you who is your biggest enemy
Get out of your way and just let it be
Misery loves company
But when I'm alone I am miserable
You can put me in a room full of people
But still I feel so invisible
But when I write about how I fight
Suddenly I feel so invincible
Find your passion, go out and grab it
Don't ever let anyone tell you "no"
I've been to prison, I've overdosed
People used to say I never had a hope
Now I write these songs as they sing along
And they're proud of me
Funny how that goes
But I still deal with depression
Every single day is a battle with anxiety
If it's all in the head and there's nothing to see
Why are so many relating to me?
If it's all in the head and there's nothing to see
Why are they feeling the same thing as me?
We all wanna change, we kill to be free
But how can you kill soemthing that doesn't breathe
Yeah, how do you kill something that doesn't breathe?
How can you fight something that tou can't see?
Addiction, depression, and anxiety
There's a gun to my head and it's loaded by me
I'm so tired of fighting, all I want is peace
I deserve to be happy, one day I'll be free
I'll never give up on something I believe
How do you fight something that you can't see?
Addiction, depression, and anxiety
There's a gun to my head and it's loaded by me
I'm so tired of fighting, all I want is peace
I deserve to be happy, one day I'll be free
I'll never give up on something I believe
We deserve to be happy, one day we'll be free
Never give up on something you believe
