VERSE 1:
Beginning and ending, I’ll tell you a story
I was like Kanye chasin’ the glory
I had a dream but I couldn’t afford it
Put it on mute but I couldn’t ignore it
Back as a kid I would color with crayons
Power of purpose inside of my hand
Feeling of freedom like birds in the wind
Lines were a guide I couldn’t fit in
Grew up some more then went off to school
At the top of my class but I felt like a fool
In my head they all said I was destined to lose
If I knew what I know, wouldn’t focus on you
Took off the cap and the gown, “I’m a failure.”
Let down myself, my parents and Savior
Am I the problem? observe my bеhavior
Dug myself deep in a hole like a cratеr
Shit didn’t work out so I went to work
Couple of years I was burdened with hurt
Planted like seeds, feelin’ dead in the dirt
I thought I was done, didn’t go back to church
Just playin’ 2K in the basement
Nobody knew what I was facin’
Convinced I spent my life wasted
My heart was filled with self-hatred
Took out my phone and I typed in my notes
Went to the store and I bought me a rope
Took a deep breath I was gaspin’ for hope
One step from my death, I was ready to go
But somehow something stopped me
From a date with a damn autopsy
That’s a long ass way to say I’ve been through hell
Shouldn’t be alive, tried to kill myself
HOOK:
So if this here’s my swan song
Will you play this when I’m long gone?
Take a breath before my death
And I just pray that it won’t last long
So if this here’s my swan song
Will you play this when I’m long gone?
Take a breath before my death
And I just pray that it won’t last long
VERSE 2:
Wonderin’ where I go from here
Started out therapy now I’m aware of me
Still I had to face my fears
Embrace all the tears in the years they were scarin’ me
I had to get out the way (Way)
Didn’t care what anyone would say
All that I knew was that shit had to change
Did it myself, become friends with the pain
Found joy in a rock and a hard place
Some songs helped me heal from the heartache
Kept workin’ somedays didn’t take breaks
I did it for you and my namesake
I was dancin’ with death, doin’ the tango
Dreamin’ of breathin’ this fire like Rango
Wrestled with God, sparrin’ with angels
90 degrees tryna find the right angle
Depth of field, had to find my focus
Dull days, wondered what the point is
The torch is tatted yeah I’m still anointed
This talent’s tough but you don’t gotta notice
Fuck a diploma, did it all sober
Gave it my all, I don’t do mediocre
I’m dancin’ my way up the steps like the Joker
Back then I was livin’ alone like Yoda
Took off my mask in the back had to face it
Me, myself, and I thoughts speed racin’
Used to have friends talk down on my greatness
Now they take shots and I don’t even chase it
Fell on my knees now I’m back on my feet
Wore my heart on my sleeve then dropped an EP
Two albums later, still fresh on the scene
And I’m not givin’ up ’til I’m touchin’ the peak
HOOK:
So if this here’s my swan song
Will you play this when I’m long gone?
Take a breath before my death
And I just pray that it won’t last long
So if this here’s my swan song
Will you play this when I’m long gone?
Take a breath before my death
And I just pray that it won’t last long
OUTRO:
The real world is a lonely and depressing place
One where purpose is on eternal backorder, while suffering is in the palm of your hand
Yet deep inside our elastic hearts of flesh and blood, we’re all searching for something
Now from my finite perspective of pain and plasma, it seems to be closer than it appears
The real world is many things: difficult, cruel, unrelenting
So unrelenting
But it’s also beautiful
Full of new wonder and mercy every morning
Creation and revolution
Imagination and evolution
Endless opportunity simply because you exist
