[Intro]
Hey friend, how was your night, did you sleep well
Well, I don't mean to irk, so farewell
Hey pal, how was your day so far, you doing alright?
Oh right, I forgot you said you're busy tonight
[Verse 1]
He dm'd you four hours ago, yeah, left him on read
Been torturing for hours, wow, huh but he’s not dead
He checked the phone a dozen times now, why? Still there?
Seeing no notifications whatsoever makes him upset
Kind of nervous, little bit sad
He knows you’re just living your life
You've got stuff going on
You don't want to hurt anyone
Yeah, sure, but that ain’t really no fun
So now if you don’t mind
I’m gonna go take my dog outside
I mean I am no parasite
Why is hе so tight?
His vision is blurred, out of sight
Out of mind
He is out of his mind
His sanity's kind of out of the light oh
Hе’s quarantined in his mind, in his head, yeah, lying on his bed
Thinking ahead, being misled, upset about everything he’s ever said
Unsaid, unheard just depressed
Why can't it come to an end?
Poisoned with his thoughts
Trying to align the dots
Everything is spinning, he can’t find the antidote
Been on it for too long, can’t tell what’s right and what’s wrong
Can you glue together a million pieces I mean, what’s the first block?
His new normal is numb don't feel nothing, it's dumb
Don't let the feelings come
And he won’t let them out
No need to overcome
Black void
"I’m not sad" he’s trying to avoid this makes him paranoid
And it kind of makes him feel annoyed
He’s destroyed
Trapped inside a polaroid
Don’t know where he lies his loyalty
Either in the closest circle or the royalty
Don’t know who to trust, who ignores, who is behind all of this
[Interlude]
‘Sup dude, night was a blast passed so fast
Gotta get some rest though, pity it has passed
Back again buddy, my phone died, I’m sorry I've not replied
But be sure I’ve not lied
Guess it's just another day for my kind
(phone vibrating)
[Verse 2]
You both laughed about the awkward situation
Like it was any other normal occasion
You don’t know what’s really happening
When he’s suffering
Take the pill, the drug to free himself of me
I made him believe, made him relive all his bad memories
Had no relief, and he had to live with the thing that’s been destroying his life every day constantly
Finally, he saw your reply, took the phone
Yeah, couldn’t pass by, he gives out a sigh
Begins to cry
What? Why?
I have no idea, doesn’t really make any sense but still if you will try to rid yourself of this dye, prolly feel like you’re gonna die. So, leave it as it is. What, is it really that hard to just live your life? Overcome anxiety and thrive?
Pick yourself up and stop living this lie
It was all my anxiety trying to build a wall
It started a war that I’m not sure ever ends, in this pace, it’s like a snowball
The more it rolls, more it scores
It’s been rolling for a while now, has collected lots of memories I’m not proud of
Has been building up my trauma every day that I walk
Has been forcing me to watch my life fall apart
I’ve been sleeping in this nightmare I thought I awoke from
If my life is a dream, please, god stop it somehow
Reliving my trauma every single day, I had to suffer the fall
Yeah, I’ve been trapped in a room and knew the only way out for me is to break that wall
Everything I’ve been going through made me think of something probably perceptual
It made me understand that, slowly, but surely, I got out of control
