[Intro: Nick Lord]
Ya
So many stories I wish I could tell...
[Verse 1: Nick Lord]
I played the last one to Percy
My cousin just gave me a pat on the back
He told me me we gotta keep working
Like maybe we'll make it and get on a check
Trust me I've been on my grind
The lack of the sleep
The pain on my neck
I'm not a rapper, I'm just a writer
I'm starving and hoping to get some of the cash
I gotta eat, they gotta eat
We like a business with capital lack
I just keep hearing these voices like
Nicky just wake up, like
Nicky just wake up, like uh
How far would you go if you got nothing to loose
What would you do it you was true to yourself
How you posed to be happy in a world
When you ain't even never like true to yourself
They told me I needed to find myself
I'll Figure it out just like Kevin said
But the deeper I search the more I feel lost
It's getting Too Deep just like JB said
Was never ready for the hits that came
Cause life after 18 not heaven sent (voices voices voices)
What a man gotta do to get his family bread
A house to stay, cause a girl's gotta eat
And that's what she said
A baby a blessing but is a lot of pain
When you cannot afford to feed uh
She needs some clothes
You need some cash
She wants you close
You never around
And when you around you always like napping
You sleeping you tired, like all of the time
She feels neglected cause you never there
It's 6 to 5 plus all overtime
"Daddy just play with me"
"Shush be quite daddy is sleeping from working" uh
Her mommy just told her so baby gets sad
So mommy just said
"Don't worry baby, daddy will play wichu another time"
''It's always going to be another time"
But baby relentless so she kept trying
Hoping to get to another time, another place, another home
Where daddy will love her like all of the time
Baby don't like it she hating this time
Mommy and Daddy be fighting this time
She hear the voices when she in her room
Is she the reason the fighting at noon?
She heard her mommy just mention her name
So slowly she walked just to knock in their room
Mommy had tears, baby had tears
Mommy gets a shock with a panic attack
Baby screams "MOM!!!!"
Mom on the ground, takes her to a clinic
The clinic says "No, ya'll need to get her better better medical"
Daddy gets stressed, he ain't got the money
He ain't even paying for no medical aid
Baby wants mom, but mommy is ill
Her blood pressure high, her fate in a seal
And she got a cancer that no one can heal
How do you tell to a four year old that her mommy is dying?
Shit is getting real
She don't got time
But a few months to live
It could be weeks it could be days
It could be hours
She under water and trying to breath
Life is at stake, your bet start to shake
Life is a game and death is a level
We can't seem to break
The endgame is loosing
Nothing left to say
Nothing But The Truth
"Mommy is leaving but Daddy will stay"
"No I want mommy me and daddy ain't close
Working and sleeping is the life that he chose
Daddy hates me, I don't like dad, I hope we was close I mean
I did nothing bad"
"Baby mommy is gone, she ain't coming back"
Baby screams "No!!!"
Starts crying on the ground, "Mommy can't leave!!!"
Baby can't breathe
"Baby please breathe!!!"
Imagine just loosing your wife and your daughter
In the same fucken day, can life get this harder?
Imagine your daughter just dying like after
She said all those words, poking you harder?
Daughter in a comma
Wife in a coffin
Voices in your head start to scream
Your life's is troughing
Voices in my head, all these stories drive me cray
My brightest days just lost its colour all I see is black and grey
They say life is a blessing hey
But I swear I seen more pain than these joyful days
I don't drink, I don't smoke
But sometimes I think of buying some of this purple haze
Money trees, fatal disease
It took it all the joy and peace
But you can't help it but blame yourself
Parts of you lost can't seem to find yourself
(voices, voices, voices)
So many stories I wish I could tell...
[Outro: Mack D]
Voices in your head makes sense than you do
Remorse pain and anger heading back to you
Love lost with pride cannot be renewed
Title lost, you now a mister with no boo
Voices in your head makes sense than you do
Remorse pain and anger heading back to you
Love lost with pride cannot be renewed
Title lost, you now a mister with no boo
