You think you know about betrayal
Open up your ears and listen closely to this tale
Ain't no fuckin fiction, how I'm living in this hell
So when I bring you to my world you better come and listen well
Now Imma speak on all my feelings like never before
Never thought I had to do this I can't hide it no more
You could never really understand the way that I feel
Been through hell, the pain I went through man it seems so unreal
Backstabbed too many times I know these wounds never heal
I gave you all of my trust, and now I know you not real
You can never really understand the way that I feel
Been through hell, the pain I went through man it seems so unreal
Backstabbed too many times I know these wounds never heal
I gave you all of my trust, and now I know you not real
How the fuck you wanna judge me, you know nothin' 'bout my life?
Had a narcissistic mother, you ain't know about my strife
If you ain't really got nobody just rely on your blood
But how the fuck I'm posed to do that mom left me in the mud
She tried to make 'em choices for me, just to make her feel better
So she could fit in with her friends, I turned to a go-getter
I was shown so much hate 'cause I stood for my thangs
So when she threw me to the wolves, I came back with their fangs
So I done turned into a demon, I ain't really give a fuck
'Cause when she see she hurt her child, she ain't really give a fuck
So when they see me talk about me, I don't really give a fuck
'Cause when I was down and alone, they ain't really give a fuck
I got trust issues, how could you blame me?
How could you love me, how could you hate me?
When I was down on the ground they proceeded to kick me
But I was too numb man, they could never break me
You could never really understand the way that I feel
Been through hell, the pain I went through man it seems so unreal
Backstabbed too many times I know these wounds never heal
I gave you all of my trust, and now I know you not real
You could never really understand the way that I feel
Been through hell, the pain I went through man it seems so unreal
Backstabbed too many times I know these wounds never heal
I gave you all of my trust, and now I know you not real
Some talked about me, some they betrayed me
But never they fought me 'cause they know gang is my safety
I'm from Qasba Safya nigga and I ain't got no shame
I merch it all on my brothers and put it all on my gang
I ain't mean to hurt you baby, I just can't trust a soul
And I can't open up my heart, I can't be losin' control
I wanna die before I'm 30, I don't wanna be grown
So why you wanna be with me if you gon' be all alone
I'm a devil sometimes I wonder if heaven's my home
Or am I going to hell, taking satan off of his throne
So I shut my feelings down, now I'm cold as a stone
Can't be havin' no connection like a broken phone
Yea I love that girl to death, but ain't no trust in my body
'Cause they done played me and betrayed me, I can't trust nobody
I can never catch feelings, and you know they ain't caught me
So how the fuck you want me now, when my momma ain't want me?
You could never really understand the way that I feel
Been through hell, the pain I went through man it seems so unreal
Backstabbed too many times I know these wounds never heal
I gave you all of my trust, and now I know you not real
You could never really understand the way that I feel
Been through hell, the pain I went through man it seems so unreal
Backstabbed too many times I know these wounds never heal
I gave you all of my trust, and now I know you not real
