[Part I: REWIND]
Don't give me the talk, just give me the action
Don't have a clue like Donovan Patton
Before you break down like improper fractions
Get a good grip on your life call that traction
Cannot make money if you get distracted
You lose it like basic subtraction
When your mental health doesn't have ration
While you're sitting around and you cash in
All the time and all of the work
Sit and complain about being overworked
If you were a CEO, you'd be a jerk
Like Mark Zuckerberg with a grin and a smirk
You'll nеver be famous, that is my word
Let mе be clear and let me be heard
That you are just gonna be an absurd
Six foot one inch worthless nerd
Intrusive thoughts on the mind
Late night thinking 'bout your friends all the time
Seven hours later get back to the grind
You haven't even hit your prime yet
You've got time left to spare
Got a head full of hair, you're not balding yet
And you're still in debt
Working on a bachelor's lookin' for a bachelorette
Beautiful short brunette
Paris honeymoon, coffee, baguette
Eiffel Tower, beautiful flowers
But you wake up and go take a shower
Dress up real nice like man of the hour
Take some advice from your subconscious
You look ridiculous and obnoxious
It's intrusive thoughts 24/7 from the moment you're born
Until you get to heaven, mad tings
No escape, don't leave, trapped in your fears
Stars have aligned, press pause, rewind
No escape, don't leave, trapped in your fears
Stars have aligned, press pause, rewind
Life goes too fast, like an autobahn
Cars Japanese, like a Shofukan
Got trucks runnin' on diesel
Pandemonium isn't peaceful
Got a new phone like "Who this?"
Talking from the heart where the groove is
Addressing big problems like elephants
Cause it's all I know, like sentiment
Preaching the Torah, like Hebrew
I need to say what I need to
It's not a new high, this a new low
Didn't realize it, don't you know
I am my own antagonist
The fact I'm mentioning this is miraculous
Then I'm viewing myself as a lesser
Like a president versus professor
And I'm speaking this all from the head
I guess I'd be better off dead
If I'd known that I won't make a difference
Put on my shoes and stop and listen
I know this era is nearly done
But everything's back to square one
I'm in my little reality
But everyone's trapped in with me (I gotta go back)
No escape, don't leave, trapped in your fears (But I gotta go back)
Stars have aligned, press pause, rewind (Gotta go back)
No escape, don't leave (Gotta go back)
Trapped in your fears (Gotta go back)
Stars have
Stop
I can't do this anymore
I can't do this anymore
Oh my god
[Part II: Aftermath]
I've been relying on the past to see if there's anything in there
To help me forward what's coming next
I realize that now after many, many months
That I've completely voided the system of balances and checks
Yet I still wonder how I ended up here in my basement making music for the world to hear
So if anyone's out there listening
I'd like to vent to you for a little bit so I can talk about my anxiety and my fear
There's been a lot of uncertainty
My brain tried to rewire its circuitry
After depending on the times that I've had in my life
Before I thought about taxes, rent and a future wife
Dream car, dream job and a happy ending
And all this time, I've been reality bending
To make sure that my future is exactly how I see it
But the hard-to-swallow pill is coming and I guess I gotta eat it
Nothing in this world is for certain
We're living in a world where we're waiting for the curtain
To reveal what's coming next
But the theaters that we build that stage on are quite complex
The past experiences are the bricks and glue that hold it all together
Shielding us from bad times and all the stormy weather
But why stare at a wall? That's no fun at all
The stage is where the now is, don't let the curtains fall
In the never-ending war in my head between progressing with my life
And holding on to that nostalgic feeling
The nostalgic feeling definitely won this time around
But look what came of it
This is my biggest project to date and I've never felt more true to myself than ever before
I'm not denying that I'm progressing in my life
But nor am I progressing with any rhyme scheme whatsoever right now
That's really what life is
Because life has no set meter, no set rhyme scheme
Life is free
Life can be whatever I choose to be
I didn't mean to rhyme, but I guess we're going back in time
To all of the people that I met on this journey
I am so damn thankful for you
Surely everyone who's crossed paths with me once will understand
That this is the boy finally becoming a man
And to all the people who I haven't met yet
I hope you listen and don't regret listening to my story
I hope it was something that you could relate to
And I understand that I might get some hate, too
But you know what? I'm gonna keep doing me
This is the path that I wanna be on for years to come
And I hope you join me
This is where I wanna be
And now I know what it feels like to truly be free
