[Intro]
Yo, yeah
[Verse 1]
I keep having different thoughts when I’m alone
Keep regressin' every time I thought that I had grown
And, no, I might never perform this at a show
And I can help you with a quiz, this shit is all I really know
I guess I always been the type to lay it down
Certain people rate me highly 'cause they like the way I sound
But they shouldn’t, the only real difference between me and them
Is I can have a D&M without havin' to be with friends
Yeah, yeah, the truth is all I need's a pen
And eloquence to fit it in a song before the beat can end
If my music only ever sounded real
It’s ‘cause I never let another person tell me how to feel
And my album ain’t the only Prime release that’s overdue
And I don’t really give a fuck if certain people don’t approve
There ain’t a thought around that I'm not too sad to entertain
'Cause all the things that really matter never change
[Chorus]
I'm just tryna live my life
I'm just tryna keep my
Head above this water
If I fall then it feels like I'm gonna
Drown, I’m just tryna reach my
Heights just tryna make the
Most of my potential but if I don’t, well
Well, well
[Verse 2]
Right now I’m living on my own (On my own)
I guess I’m not the easiest to live with
Any difference of opinion, I explode
That’s why I seem to ruin every meaning with ellipses
I justify like they're deserving of the truth
But my critiques and criticism's more like personal abuse
And my confidence is real when layin' verses in the booth
But when I feel like this, that shit couldn’t be further from the truth, so
I know what I’m doin' is nonsensical
But it makes me mad that my anger is dispensable
Even though I know my behaviour's reprehensible
All I do's apologise and say it’s not intentional
Different levels of beef with every person I know
So I’m best liked by the ones I don’t refer to as close
Next time my hostility’s mentioned, it’s heard as a joke
But the fact they really mean it is what hurts me the most, I know
[Chorus]
I'm just tryna live my life
I'm just tryna keep my
Head above this water
If I fall then it feels like I'm gonna
Drown, I’m just tryna reach my
Heights just tryna make the
Most of my potential but if I don’t, well
Well, well
[Verse 3]
I don’t think I got different personalities
I just think at certain times it’s hard work to balance me
And although my different chapters look like each other
It’s suicide to ever judge my book by its cover
It feels like I could make it right if I record it
But it never sounds the same as when I ride and it’s flawless
I say it doesn’t matter, I try to just ignore it
But how I appear to other people‘s vitally important
There’s prolly someone out there that will tell you this is emo
But this is my life, so what the fuck would he know?
I can win a hand and build a friendship with a dealer
But I only ever feel it when I lose at the casino
I can’t reconcile with the person that I’ve come to be
All the things I'm meant to feel at three-three are numb to me
And my friends are happy to go drinkin' or have fun with me
But if they had a problem I don’t think that they would come to me
I got the sense my family would be in between
'Cause people hear what I say but they don’t see what I mean
And maybe that’s because I didn’t show ‘em
I’m lookin' at the people that I’m closest to her and askin' if I know 'em
My arrangement with myself ain't workin' out anymore
'Cause I got five or six good things and thousands of flaws
So I don’t deserve a round of applause but here’s my life on an album
One click of a mouse and it’s yours, enjoy
[Chorus]
I'm just tryna live my life
I'm just tryna keep my
Head above this water
If I fall then it feels like I'm gonna
Drown, I’m just tryna reach my
Heights just tryna make the
Most of my potential but if I don’t, well
Well, well
