Hook [Kierra Sari]
In the coldest winter
I try to remember
All the pain and the hurt I've caused yeah
Why can't I see past my own flaws here
In the coldest winter
Hiding in this river
As I slowly descend to the bottom
But I don't know who'd forgive a monster
Verse 1 [Raj Parker]
Chillin in the dark...all by my lonesome
Yes I mean alone, even God is absent
Can't hear him. Can't hear him calling out my name
I want him to speak to me loud and clear again
Like he used to, when I was a snot nose, seven years old, but I preached like I was 24...and fearless, but looking back just naïve
It's easy not to fear what you've never seen turn against you, leave you out in the cold with nothing to defend you, stripped bare naked all in shame they never let you
Live it down, never let it go, never forgive, never forget, I'm never gonna go
To this new level, ain't nobody gonna feel my pain. I reached out for reconciliation, no one came. The only ones who spoke were those whom I didn't offend
Which means in their hearts they do not wish to make amends
And if this bit doesn't kill me...I know another thing will soon
I ask again: "Yo, can anybody hear me?" If I remain here imma lose it
Hook [Kierra Sari]
In the coldest winter
I try to remember
All the pain and the hurt I've caused yeah
Why can't I see past my own flaws here
In the coldest winter
Hiding in this river
As I slowly descend to the bottom
But I don't know who'd forgive a monster
Verse 2 [Raj Parker]
Yeah. My name got about 20 letters in it...but only 3 syllables
What I've become over past time, as I hardened my heart to this worlds cruel cynicals
The non believers and all the fakes. I used to be different, then I started to assimilate
Affiliate. I started to adapt. My improved mind de-evolutionized, I took a step back to the dark ages; Where there was no God. Live and die by the sword, eat by progress
If you failed, left you face down in the water or caught up with the latest plague so why bother
Just live your life as pauper. There's no merit in always trying to be a prince
Since I can't live like a king
I've let go of "already" and stopped believing in "not yet"
Hook [Kierra Sari]
In the coldest winter
I try to remember
All the pain and the hurt I've caused yeah
Why can't I see past my own flaws here
In the coldest winter
Hiding in this river
As I slowly descend to the bottom
But I don't know who'd forgive a monster
Verse 3 [Raj Parker]
So now I understand what I'm called to
The beast must be slain, I cannot remain caustic
I gotta let it all go, no more bravado. Boasting in my rhymes I must now speak softer
Even though I knock him, it's probably how Da' T.R.U.T.H. felt
After the Faith was nominated, sure we all felt
Like he deserved the Grammy, the greatest Christian spitter ever to pen all them lyrics down, gotta give him that
Then he changed. The burn left. The fire left his breath, had us all looking like who the what is that?
The REAL truth. Who we should have known. No more aggression towards the body, his covers blown
To smithereens, pieces. Try to pick em up. But we didn't see it, this the voice of one
Whom the peace of Jesus has completely overtaken
A heart of a man that no longer gives wins to Satan
So we should praise him, once we see the big picture
Go on, be foolish and try to put a frame in
You can't. An impossible task. Lets just be honest and say the concept of submission is hard to grasp
For all of us, struggling as laymen. Let your nays become "Yes"s and Amens
The love of God penetrates and makes a-mends. Throughout the pain I will submit to these chang-es
