I do this all the time; I'm used to the pain These scars of mine will always remain I never questioned why I felt this way Always accepted that I was not okay Through blurry eyes I watch my hands draw blood from my flesh once again But I’ve never gone this deep before and as I try to get up off the floor I feel weak at the knees, and light in the head And I think, 'fuck, this was an accident' I call for help, but I am here all alone It will be hours before you’ll be home I lose perception of my surroundings Slowly but surely, I start to feel drowsy I've lost too much blood - I can't find my phone I feel so scared, and confused, and lost, and alone I didn't even get a chance to properly say goodbye Half-written suicide notes dating back to last July And I can't help but imagine the look in your eyes And in your grief, you blame yourself and even try to apologise What the fuck was I thinking dancing with death? It hasn't been easy living like this But did I really want for it to end this way? Fade into nothingness and leave my corpse on display for the ones that I love to discover? I used to think that it didn't even matter But the only thing that comes from death is broken hearts You're gonna find my suicide notes The ones I wished I never wrote The ones that say: I can’t go on The ones that are all ripped and torn (ripped and torn) You’re gonna find my suicide notes The ones I never even completed I used to feel so fucking defeated But now I'll never feel another thing at all "I guess I’ve always been better at writing my feelings down As opposed to speaking them - especially when the words that come out just feel like razor Blades on my tongue I'm trapped in this aching state of paralysis Because I don't want to be here anymore I just won't let myself act on it I’m so full of fear, which only makes me feel like I'm this huge burden And not just on myself, but on my loved ones Especially when they actually acknowledge that I am fucked up And they go out of their way to try and help me But nothing they do ever makes me feel any better" "Medication's just a cover up And I can only distract myself for so long Before I find myself spiralling back down into this fucking mess of a mind Full of so much confusion, and a million mixed messages And I guess it's just unfortunate that the voice That stands out most is the one that says 'just kill yourself' So if this means that I'm weak, or I'm selfish, or I gave up, then fine I won't argue with that But I'm tired of my eyes stinging - and my head aching And my nightmares being nothing compared to the state of mind I find myself trapped in day after day - night after night And I would come kiss you goodbye but I know you'll change my mind" "I'm sorry..." I'll be a memory - I'll be a headstone Please forgive me; I just really want you to know I love you so much and I am so sorry I didn't tell you enough when you could hear me But I cannot regret what I have done Because you can't feel a thing when you are gone
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