[Hook]
Hope you still guard over me over that window
Once you cross over baby run to your end goal
12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold
You're the reason heaven exists for
Hope you still guard over me over that window
Once you cross over baby run to your end goal
12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold
You're the reason heaven exists for
Met you when I was 12 when I was feigning for attention
Since the household constantly having tension
So sought a friend in you, never had to say a sentence
We just clicked, connected at the hip (Shit)
Always kept a stick, green in your bowl
Taking any swing my dad would go and throw
Getting a whole rake broken off your coat
Didn't know what to do had escape the household
So we ran to the park, trynna to not get found though
Ran the streets, ha bro with the round nose
Just two youngins, broken from a foul home
Dad constantly threatened to kick you out though
Took the brunt of his anger, still kept a smile on
Weird kid, stayed in my head more than my home
You were the only one when it came to me spent there time on
When my family was broken you were my bond
[Hook]
Hope you still guard over me over that window
Once you cross over baby run to your end goal
12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold
You're the reason heaven exists for
Hope you still guard over me over that window
Once you cross over baby run to your end goal
12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold
You're the reason heaven exists for
You following each move looking up to me
When my mental was to much you gave love to me
Never placed yourself above you'd stand under me
You Protecting me, me protecting you
15 in the city Made me feel bullet proof
Cancer never made you once stop
Running from the crazy neighbors at the bus-stop
Threatened us both almost hit with a gun shot
Going down the slides as a kid, playing football
Too smart for your own good, since a foot tall
Heaviest in your litter but had the most energy
Get into trouble; I was pissed but now missing these
Moments, now that I saw you struggling to getting up
Muscles dwindling and thinning up
Got me tearing up, fearing stuff
Like Father Time, and Mother Nature - fuck
[Hook]
Hope you still guard over me over that window
Once you cross over baby run to your end goal
12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold
You're the reason heaven exists for
Hope you still guard over me over that window
Once you cross over baby run to your end goal
12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold
You're the reason heaven exists for
At the park, having heart to hearts, never parted ways
Even when homeless had you in a reach of arms
Call me soft, never claimed I'm hard but you leaving earth
Got me weak as all, mind seems to teeter off
Can't stop thinking of you dog feeling lost
My hell started when you left to go to heaven
Almost every day for 12 years we spent together
Pit in my stomach builds cause you didn't get better
They keep saying you had a long life and nothing lasts forever
But fuck that we had more time to spend together
Trying to find anybody to place the blame
In the wake of your death
Cause of the rage and shame
It can't wrap around my brain that you're now in a grave
Fuck the idea of Devine timing
Our family go through trauma together we call that bonding
And me and you we had a lot of it
Why you have to die for the family to stop fighting?
Why did it happen so fast you were just so lively
Why did God have to take you, I'm searching for the why's and
And I get no answers or responses
It's just this hurt feels different
The pureness of your soul when it went away and lifted
The color in this world became grey and different
Scrambling in my head did I make the right decision?
All the signs point to yes, but your presence I've been missing
Second guessing every thought that I've been thinking
Why didn't we make a doctor visit a month quicker?
You Could've been healed, you could've been right here
Those last seven days wasn't enough I feel
You were strong enough to pull through, I mean forreal
You went through so much, these illnesses to you were little
But it's a moot point, you served your time on earth
So my eyes are waterworks angels are swimming in it
Try to let out the hurt
But i feel like it's never ending
Got you 12 years old passed away at the same age
The 12th at 12 o'clock, was the end of your pain babe
[Hook]
Hope you still guard over me over that window
Once you cross over baby run to your end goal
12 to forever I'll be missing you tenfold
You're the reason heaven exists for
Time beat us this time ain't those kids any more
God won't cage you in, you now a free soul
So sprint up those steps up to the big door
I'll be walking through one day and we can both roam
