My life, it has no advantage
My life never advances
I smile but they know deep inside I am growing with sadness, this little thing called life, man I can't understand it, but even though it beats me down, still I remain standing, sick of the lies, the pain, I have inside is everlasting, from being friends with everyone just to see, none of them lasted
They said they'll be here forever, never thought they would vanish, what happened? Why do I compare myself to the next guy? I should love myself, questioning my existence doesn't help
Stuck in spiralling depression nothing can get me up. I wonder If I'm the only one who was stuck in the slump, no matter how high you jump, you just can't get yourself over this hump
And you try different ways to climb it while wondering, how the fuck did you even get inside it
It feels like the floors are lowered and the world is rising leaving you at the bottom trying... harder and harder to reach it with discouraging ways to try it...
Does no one see the fucking position that I am standing? My parents don't understand me, sometimes it's hard to call family ''family''
When in reality it's me not getting attention, and I always get screwed when you know I do not deserve it, My life may look it, but it isn't perfect, I feel worthless, like if I died everyone's life would be great because I am a burden
My mom is certain that I make everyone's life hell, so for real I'ma say I'm honoured to close these curtains
I'm so fucking depressed, I just received a text, saying do I miss my ex? Time to time I think about her yes, do I love her? no no, not ever never, cause after what she put me through I knew I deserved better... heartless bitch. the everysingle letter she ever wrote contradicted it's self because right now she's in love with somebody else
I want to grab her and stab her and have feel the pain that I had when she left, I'm happy but deep down there is a lot that is unsaid, but what's the matter? Her stupid ass would just never listen, she lost the greatest thing in the world but she will not admit it...
Forget it. Let's talk about something that's different before I branch out and blast hoe's stupid ass decisions. My life in general is need of change because the road I'm walking on is full of unforgettable memorable pain. I'm trying to switch lanes, no openings for a U-turn, who gets burned? Me, myself until I motherfucking learn, When you in depression nobody wants to pick you up, people don't give a fuck, they just want to see you stuck
And they laugh and act like you don't need their assistance, they say that you lying you tripping, really you are just venting, about your feelings and your opinions, but people in this world don't give a fuck, and you are quick to get judged, And I suffer from people trying to doubt me... Honestly, you'll never get the best of me, and I promise they'll never get rid of me
Even though I'm feeling downer than ever and losing the effort to move forward, I'm trying to go toward an understanding that life doesn't go as planned, and sadly I cannot change it
But I can take it and become stronger, I'm a man up, no longer get the running, and fuck everybody else, I'm a do me, my life is a movie, screw who is watching, it is my show
The world is my party, you're not invited. Fuck if you like it, this is my life and I'm deciding that I'ma keep my head up even though I'm feeling fed up there's no motherfucking reason that I should fucking give up. And I'ma never give up, you should hate it or love it, but I promise that words and the feelings are really nothing, to what I'ma do. To what I'ma do...
Ain't got nothing to lose... Yeah... Yeah
