[Verse 1: Violent J]
Everybody always fillin' my head
Tryin’ to help, but instead they be killin' me dead
Since I was little, spiked walls, I'm in the middle
It’s like everyday life be a riddle
Psychologists tellin' me things, sellin' me pills
For thrills, I bet none of it's real
Murder only seems impossible to those who can't do it
But liquor and pills will guide you through it
They've always told me I'll burn in Hell, I'm that mean
But all that waits to be seen
I might still save myself along the way
But that won’t save yourself today
Am I a product of a world gone mad?
Brain gone bad? Blame on Dad?
Face painted, bloody, cuttin’ you up
I don't really know why, don’t give no fuck
Help me? Brother, don't even try
I don't wanna help myself no more, I won't even lie
I’ve adjusted to my inner beast, and I trust it
When he shows up, at the least your chin'll get busted
And the weed might slow me down
But when I panic, seven dudes couldn't hold me down
In the beginnin', they poked me with sticks in the playground
Now I'm shackled on my way downtown
[Chorus]
I was always told by everyone
Where I'm goin' and what I will become
When I'm all alone, I hold a gun
Tryin' not to kill someone
I was always told by everyone
Where I'm goin' and what I will become
When I'm all alone, I hold a gun
Tryin' not to kill someone
[Verse 2: Esham]
I was always told by everyone that I shouldn't carry guns
Voices in my head locked in the sanitarium
All my enemies, man, you really shouldn't worry 'em
In the cemetery's where you'll 'em when I bury 'em
Super duper wicked like Alice Cooper and Ozzy
Hitler theory, kamikaze black nazi
Always told by everyone that I was in the hot seat
With gasoline drawers on, servin' on the hot street
Always told by everyone not to marry 'em
Money over bitches and I sho'nuff bury 'em
Always told I'm scarin' 'em, but I'm preparin' 'em
For the final fear factor while society's darin' 'em
Always told to pop that but never stop that
Put it out, push the package, you go and cop that
Get my villain on 'em, make a killin' on 'em
Slugs get to drillin' on 'em, blood get to spillin' on 'em
[Chorus]
I was always told by everyone
Where I'm goin' and what I will become
When I'm all alone, I hold a gun
Tryin' not to kill someone
I was always told by everyone
Where I'm goin' and what I will become
When I'm all alone, I hold a gun
Tryin' not to kill someone
[Verse 3: Lavel]
See I, wanna just breathe again
Sick thoughts in my head 'bout to seize again
See everybody told me my mind's fucked up
When I was little, I'd stand right in front of a truck
But I wanna just shoot up shit
Got a problem with the law and it can't be fixed
I see a gun, here I go, murder's on my mind
I need help, alcohol, a knife and a nine
I sit alone, it gets worse, I can't take this
I'm pissed I ain't rich, I'm poor I ain't shot
So I rob everyone, and they told me not to do it
I listen but I'm fucked, I'm a killer and they knew it
Now the police lookin', but I'm not a suspect
I can't think, I forgot why these cuts on my neck
Every day a new death, I can't figure it out
I put the gun to my head, man, fuck it, I'm out
[Chorus]
I was always told by everyone
Where I'm goin' and what I will become
When I'm all alone, I hold a gun
Tryin' not to kill someone
I was always told by everyone
Where I'm goin' and what I will become
When I'm all alone, I hold a gun
Tryin' not to kill someone
[Outro]
Tryin' not to kill someone
I was always told by everyone
Where I'm goin' and what I will become
When I'm all alone, I hold a gun
Tryin' not to kill someone
I was always told by everyone
Where I'm goin' and what I will become
When I'm all alone, I hold a gun
Tryin' not to kill someone
