(Verse 1)
Forever in this, see the temperature depleting
Cold up in my heart, I feel they soft as Tempur-Pedic
Love was never needed, I was built to be a leader
Lend them my heart, we gon' build this from the bleachers
I been on the outside looking in
Window foggy, so I made my blueprint
I got stories that I still can’t say here
I got hurt and I still can’t paint it
Now since a young pup, always been the one that's stuck
Do I wanna be a menace, wanna be lovеd?
Do I wanna wait my turn, or do I turn the volume up?
Do I turn the tablеs, turn the gun on them and light em up?
Who said I ain’t bout make this my home
I been camping here so long, I'm bout to have a tombstone
I was comatose, hanging onto hope that was gone
I was on the ropes, slipping, losing grip on the throne
That’s a fact little homes, you ain’t been where I’ve gone
You ain’t seen what I seen, so don’t judge me tomorrow
Coz I might just go remember all the things that went wrong
Like when I used to ride along the streets in the cold
Dark summer nights in the 6062
I was in over my head, had an operation too
Coz I could lost a limb and my mind in my youth
Thankful that I had my support all through
Anyway let’s get back, I ain' tryna skim that
The shit so ill, I nearly killed a man, yep
Can picture it so perfect, how I tore open his flesh
Vivid nightmares, I been dealing with all of this stress
PTSD had me down on my knees
Hiding in my bedroom, couldn’t even go to sleep
Smoking mirrors, I tried to hide under sheets
We couldn’t find the man that tried to murder me
I wonder what happened, I was defending my action
I ain’t into violence, gang ganging and the factions
I was middle class child, felt like broken bones
In the constant pain, then I saw the broken homes
How could i complain, why this feeling ain’t go away
Tried to weigh up the two, really we ain’t the same
Will he get up today, will he get him some A’s
No plan B’s, you see, i was determined to play
Back out in the streets feeling confident
Unmarked car, he pulled over quick
Dusty ass dog, with some cracked lips
A man came out running at me, tryna grab kids
I did the dash quick, jumped from a ledge, shit
He still following, he yelling at me mad shit
Big boots, hear them creeping on me, crashing
Mind racing, does he wanna rape or put me in a casket
Bitch, I get the basket, the washing on his head
And I slipped under a fence, hiding from the man
No he ain’t a man, he a pussy ass, damn
I got in the house, then he fled in his van
(Verse 2)
Fast forward, I was moving packs like a trap lord
They got a young kid flying round wit no pass port
I wasn’t even that poor, wasn’t that even that lost
But I thought fuck it, nearly died, so I’m untouchable
Trauma done fuck with you, I dodged the constable
I done dodged the wrong route, it really could gone and blew
Up in my face, I got stuck in a place
Thank fuck that I changed, my dream, I chased
Anaesthetic, had me deaded
Could've been without my leg, carry prosthetic
Bury my head in, social shit I dreaded
Outside I dreaded, need to tay meded
Neck like a lasso, snapped on my back bone
In and out, losing my mind though
Didn’t fit the status quo, didn’t fit their box
Didn’t wanna bag the dope, but i was trapped wit no locks
Sunlight beams, so my ears go ring
Sunlight schemes, tryna find my dreams
Under bright lights, like I’m balling wit the team
Under bright lights, for the Bucks like Kareem
Carousel, I spin, clientele thin
Dry spell, my world, rockier than ridge
Tipped on a bridge, sitting here desperately
Go scream, paint it purple like it's lean
(Outro)
'08 yeah my world turned
