Verse 1:
Oh, so this is that time of the year again, huh?
Are you even excited nigga, cuz apparently your face is saying otherwise
Stuck in the same lows everyday, bro when is you gonna rise?
It's sad and now nothing's a surprise
To you, cuz you just look at stuff like "Okay great, that's that"
I don't even know why you're like that
Crazy how time's been moving fast
And you're stuck on a slant tryna progress but you keep sliding back
Here we are in the third part of your 25th march
And still nun of these people give a damn about your craft
But I know the reasons why you started doing this music
One of those is cuz since a kid you've always felt like
No one was ever there to listen
Always felt misunderstood, unheard and different
From everybody else, you were an outcast, you still are
And these days you're succumbing to the feeling that your life is in a shipwreck agh
So the mic happens to be easiest outlet
Where you could burst out and express all thoughts and feelings
And today is your bday you need to celebrate
Nigga, the hell is you in your feelings again?
Verse 2:
Hey nigga look at me, is you even listening?
You really gotta change homie cuz you really sicken me
You is never an optimist you always find a way to negate your thoughts
What happened? When and how the hell did you end up like this?
You got a tendency to always, find bad in good
Everyday you just get hooked in an, effed up mood
Damn it, I hope you won't ever think of making a noose
If I'm being honest, I ain't happy with you to tell you the truth
You overthink mwaiche na pillow inasilila
Mutu walema namaganizo, you loathe who you see in the mirror
Though you got some people looking up to you to become their pillar
You feel it's over for you, losing sight nothing's getting clearer
In your head is where you spend your whole day
A very chilled nigga, calm and collected in people's presence
But you just fake all of that, cuz really you're not okay
And all these smiles you giving out it's all pretence
Cuz you don't open up, you don't want anybody being sympathetic
I hate that you feel your life is worthless and pathetic
They say happiness comes from within
But your within nigga is void as fuck
Bridge:
How many more smiles you gon' fake at everybody's face
Your brain ain't getting no rest
Seeking closure but can't seem to find it anywhere
The way you been treating yourself honestly, it ain't fair
I said how many more smiles you gon' fake at everybody's face
Your brain ain't getting no rest
Seeking closure but can't seem to find it anywhere
The way you been treating yourself honestly...
Verse 3:
First love yourself cuz you can't love anyone else
Always blaming and hating yourself that never helps
Be more open, why you always stuck in your shell? No
You need to learn to forgive yourself
Love yourself
Take care of yourself
But you just delve in your self hatred
Self love ain't gotta be one of those things you're neglecting
I really wonder how your life woulda been
If you never had this place where you spill out all your emotions on these verses
And it's crazy how everybody thinks you're happening, when really you're just struggling
Because they see this music thing, see you pushing
They don't know your days just keeps darkening
Lotta debts at your so called work, your pockets keeps shallowing
When's the last time you conversed with your pops? You don't remember
Still wish you coulda been best friends with him, since a kid huh
You feel like it ain't nobody you could run to when you need a shoulder
Feeling distant from your family now more than ever
Let's talk about your ma'
I know you'll never be ready to let her go
Though it's been decades now
Dude you're hurting but you don't ever show it
I know you being pulled in different directions
But I'm gonna punch you in the face if you let your freaking guard down bro
Outro:
They now prolly call you corny, ati you just whine about the same things in your songs
But they'll never understand no matter how much emphasize in these songs
That you only do it for yourself and anybody that would relate
Cut yourself off from everything that exacerbate, you
I know how crazy things are but keep your head high
Got a whole life ahead of you so don't stop just keep trying
Compartmentalize your thoughts and get rid of all those that weigh you down
Just know that I'm always here for you when you need someone
Happy birthday nigga
